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I had four different requests for help yesterday, but I physically can't function since the surgery and mentally I'm trashed from being me and the recovery process. My confidence is completely gone. I don't trust I can do anything correctly. How can I explain to people that I'm not able to function? These are all things I could normally do in minutes and was very good at and of course did for free to be helpful, but I really cannot do anything any more. I'm also very embarrassed by the odor of the colostomy, which I can't control either, even with the "neutralizers" and sprays. I stink badly. My digestive system is not well, but is mending slowly. How can I tell people I'm not useful right now? I feel awful and have been ignoring them but that makes me feel worse. I cried over this for at least an hour this morning and several times yesterday. I'm completely useless and worthless. Why can't they see that too?