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#681
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And I agree with you. I haven't had enough of my own thing. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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So true. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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#683
I had a fearful thought yesterday: what if he becomes violent when I do tell him I am leaving him? During early fights right after marriage, when he would yell at me and when I would tell him "I'm not putting up with this kind of treatment, and I want a divorce", he slammed a couple dresser drawers in anger. That coupled with holding me down in bed sometimes, does this mean he could potentially become violent when I face him with an actual divorce? I am a bit fearful and worried.
It's far away from now, but that thought scared the dickens out of me, and I thought perhaps I should have someone with me when I tell him. But that would be totally humiliating for him -- to have a trusted friend or family member of mine hear me tell him I am leaving him and this is why? I would be so humiliated if that were me. Then again, IF he does show any violence and I don't have someone present with me, I could call the police on him, get a restraining order, and have that on my side when we do divorce. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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#684
Also, we drove an hour out of state last night for an outdoor event, and he noticed I was not smiling and not very enthused. Thoughts about him becoming violent were on my mind, so i was very quiet and reticent. He asked me what was wrong, so I told him that I have a lot on my mind. It's not the 1st time I've said that to him recently. But he didn't even probe further, or ask me if I wanted to talk about it. He didn't ask me anything else after I said that. This only tells me he truly doesn't care about how I feel... it also tells me that he really only cares about himself.
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#685
Is he the type to get physically violent? Having someone with you isn’t a bad idea. I think he might also show no reaction acting like he doesn’t care or might not even believe you.
Divorce is no fault, you don’t really need any reason to divorce or prove anything. Divorce is relatively simple under your circumstances. I am not saying it’s simple from emotional stand point but procedurally speaking. It doesn’t matter if you are divorcing because he is violent or because he chews with his mouth open. It honestly makes no difference in the eyes of the law. Court doesn’t care about it in regards to following up with officially divorcing you. It’s only complicated when there are large assets and funds to divide and property to split and sell and custody and child support issues or demands of alimony (in longer marriages than couple of years). None of that pertains to your marriage (procedure wise). You actually don’t even need a lawyer to file for divorce (you would though if he starts demanding something that is yours, but again it would be no matter how he behaved during marriage in terms of splitting possessions, courts won’t care about his behavior) Having said that you absolutely should call police if he puts your hand on you or threatens to do so. |
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#686
Your husband might pretend he doesn’t know you have marital concerns
My ex (long term boyfriend) never wanted to investigate further what bothered me after I’d tell him, he’d just say “I promise i will quit”. (My issue was him being functioning alcoholic and not taking recovery seriously, he’d relapse every 6 months or a year and still wouldn’t go AA or professional, he “could do it himself”- yeah right). No in depth discussion. Just lip service. I said sadly one more relapse and I am out. Well guess what of course he relapsed and tried to hide it. When I said I am leaving he acted like I never complained and that’s the first time he heard of the problem. He literally told me I wish you told me how bad it was. You got to be kidding me. Not only it was ongoing topic for years. He didn’t want to really listen because then he’d have to do something about it (like not trying to convince me that he can quit alcohol without professional help and him promptly relapsing every year was just a normal thing). Honestly I think it doesn’t matter if you tell him what bothers you or won’t. If he really want to know he’d not be acting non chalant |
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I would want to give some reasons for divorcing him, but not anything that blames him, causing him to go into a fit of rage or anything that is accusatory. I would keep it neutral. Yes, I understand the legal and practical aspects. I do still need to call and consult with a lawyer though, __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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That is unbelievable regarding your ex! Talk about going into total denial of a problem! __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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#689
I had to shop for a birthday card for my husband birthday, which is tomorrow. All the messages in cards that were birthday cards for husbands or love were too dishonest for me to claim.... "you're the love of my life" and "life is so much better with you in it" kind of statements. I finally found one that was more neutral and less lovey dovey, though it's still a stretch. It says something about celebrating him and with all my heart. It's the best I could do, without being obviously coldhearted and distant.
This feels SO weird. I am lying, and I am not a liar by nature. But this is a necessary evil. Perhaps it's not even evil.... it's self protection, so that's my stance on it. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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I agree. Total denial.
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Hugs to you. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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#693
Well, this morning all I did was tell him it's strange that I haven't been invited to any of his "closed' friends groups on Facebook, and all hell broke loose.
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Did he get mad instead of explaining good reasons? Like those are only men groups or specifically his former classmates group or his unique hobby groups? There are ton of groups (online or irl) that only one of us belongs to. But it’s easy to explain why. No need to get mad about it. Did he get argumentative?
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I've mentioned in another prior thread that I've had trust issues because of my past. He has withheld information from me several times, not telling me the full truth of the matter, which did not help me to trust him fully, or rather, it poked holes in my trust. So he flipped out, thinking that I was being suspicious of him, when I wasn't at all. I admit I have trust issues and I know that they interfere with our relationship and cause issues, but he doesn't need to flip out on me over a simple and silly comment I made about a FB group. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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So after getting mad at first, did he explain the reason not inviting you or did he add you to the group?
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We almost broke up though this morning, on his bday. We had a bad argument over my Facebook comment, so I took off my wedding rings.
Once again, divorce has been mentioned in a fight. He didn't want a divorce, apologized and we've made up, but it's tainted the day. And during our talk of divorce, he claimed he would quit his job on Monday, leave and move down to Florida to live with his parents, leaving me to deal with the entire rent for the apartment and everything else that is his within the apartment. That just goes to show.... His name IS on the apartment lease though, so he is just as responsible for the rent as I am. Luckily. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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He did send a request to his friend to add me to the group. He said it's a closed/private group focused on a concert and wedding they all went to long before he met me, but there are 60 people in the group or something like that, and it's a band that I also like. I am also friends on Facebook with several of his friends who are members of the group.
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I am glad you made up but it made me wonder why was it important for you to be in this group now if you are planning a divorce? Actually even if you don’t want to divorce why is it important to be in that group? I am not justifying him getting mad instead of calm conversation but id see it as wanting to be attached to each other hip 24/7. Do you have groups that are just yours? I don’t see harm in it. And who mentioned divorce in a fight? If there are no plans to divorce, I really don’t understand why divorce is being brought up every time. Is it him bringing it up? You say why I am not in group and he says I think we need to get a divorce? It’s so extreme
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He asked if I want to be married to him anymore, so in the midst of fighting, eventually I blurted out that I don't and I took off my rings. Then he backed down from everything. Divorce is brought up every time we fight because one of us gets SO upset and frustrated that divorce is mentioned. I cannot explain it. I have never had such unhealthy communications with someone. __________________ "Twenty-five years and my life is still trying to get up that great big hill of hope for a destination" ~4 Non Blondes |
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