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Default Apr 01, 2021 at 06:56 AM
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@TunedOut, thank you.

This is the wisest advice... thank you so very much. I agree 100% with you. I do need to just let this lie for now. And I agree that posting about it probably won't help me any.

Not sure my advice is always wise LOL but thanks and yes, there is a time to get advice and then there is a time to just take time to figure out what we want and is best for our current life situation.

Sort of related but not totally--when I used to do call center sales, one of the things we learned is that we were more likely to "sell" if we offered some choice but did not give too many choices. Too many choices (and perhaps too much advice ) can actually make us less likely to make a decision. Hope this isn't TMI. I am having one of those days where I might be overposting too!
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Not sure my advice is always wise LOL but thanks and yes, there is a time to get advice and then there is a time to just take time to figure out what we want and is best for our current life situation.

Sort of related but not totally--when I used to do call center sales, one of the things we learned is that we were more likely to "sell" if we offered some choice but did not give too many choices. Too many choices (and perhaps too much advice ) can actually make us less likely to make a decision. Hope this isn't TMI. I am having one of those days where I might be overposting too!
@TunedOut, that analogy makes sense and is a good one.

I do need time, and I need to figure this all out on my own for now. I am definitely not ready to make a decision and I have far bigger issues on my plate right now such as taking care of my mental health and starting a new job in a little over a week. I need to get healthy again so that I can actually work... those are bigger issues at the moment and take precedence over making a decision about my marriage.

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Default Apr 02, 2021 at 04:16 PM
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While you are taking some time to decide would be a perfect opportunity for him to begin individual therapy. Couples therapy can be useful but imo it is in individual therapy, not in couples therapy, that an individual can make needed large changes in the way that they function in life.
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While you are taking some time to decide would be a perfect opportunity for him to begin individual therapy. Couples therapy can be useful but imo it is in individual therapy, not in couples therapy, that an individual can make needed large changes in the way that they function in life.
Thanks, @Bill3. He wants to start couples therapy before he starts individual therapy for some reason.

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I just spoke with my closest girlfriend about some of the issues in my marriage. I do not have high hopes for change, and I do not have high hopes for therapy being effective. I have a feeling that therapy will only solidify for me leaving the marriage.

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I agree with the others, abusers do not change, but I do understand you needing support irl. My only wish for now is that you do not move back in with him (ever).
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I agree with the others, abusers do not change, but I do understand you needing support irl. My only wish for now is that you do not move back in with him (ever).
Thanks.... I really do not know what I am going to do.

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We almost divorced. I was SO close - the divorce paperwork had been finalized and all we needed to do was file.

Then my husband's 85 year-old sick and elderly father was sent to the hospital with heart trouble. My husband called me devastated and in tears, and I supported him.

Then, I was bullied in my recent new job. I called my husband in tears and he supported me. We talked on the phone for an hour and he helped to calm me down immensely. He was very reassuring, and I needed him.

We began talking more and more. Soon enough, we were texting every day and becoming friends again.

The whole time we've been separated, he has repeated how much he loves me and how devastated he has been without me.

We've been living apart since the end of November. We're still living apart, and we're still not wearing our wedding rings.

However, we are together - but not fully. We slept together for the 1st time in months last weekend. We talk every day. He tells me how much he loves me, and sometimes, I tell him I love him back.

I have recently been hospitalized for serious mental health issues and I also had Covid. I was in the hospital for ten days.

I am not making any decisions about my marriage until I feel stable and sound again. I am not either right now, but I am confused.

Do I still love him? Can I trust him ever again? Do I even want this marriage or would I be far happier alone? These are the questions swirling in my head.

He agreed to go to couples counseling, but we are waiting until I start my new job. He isn't in individual counseling... I would prefer we go to a couples therapist.

I just don't know how I feel anymore. I have been through SO much lately, that my head is literally spinning.

There are many things about him that deter me away. Then there are several things that keep me feeling hooked and tied to him emotionally and romantically. I am still attracted to him physically.

I am posting this thread to help me figure out an answer to how I feel and what I want.

Can I be happy with him? That's my main issue. He has a lot of behaviors that need changing and improving. Then there are habits of his that I cannot stand living with.

On the flip side, he does take care of me in ways that I love, need and want.

It feels like a matter of "can't live with him, can't live without him" - UGH.

Wait you’re separated yet you had sex?

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Wait you’re separated yet you had sex?
Yes. We're basically back together in an effort to see if the marriage can be salvaged, but we're still living apart.

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A counselor I emailed about couples counseling services recommended an abusive men's therapy agency that is local to us. I am going to insist that my husband seek's help there, while I look for a couples counselor. I am in charge of finding a therapist because I want to be.... not because he asked me to be. I want to find the right counselor, but in the meantime, this will tell me if he is serious or not about seeking help. If he refuses or resists, it will be very telling.

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Sounds good to me!
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A counselor I emailed about couples counseling services recommended an abusive men's therapy agency that is local to us. I am going to insist that my husband seek's help there, while I look for a couples counselor. I am in charge of finding a therapist because I want to be.... not because he asked me to be. I want to find the right counselor, but in the meantime, this will tell me if he is serious or not about seeking help. If he refuses or resists, it will be very telling.
If I was having to seek out a therapist from an abusive men's therapy agency, that would be a really huge red flag about allowing that man in my life.

I hope you start feeling better and can see your way through this current confusion. I know you've been going through the wars lately.
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If I was having to seek out a therapist from an abusive men's therapy agency, that would be a really huge red flag about allowing that man in my life.

I hope you start feeling better and can see your way through this current confusion. I know you've been going through the wars lately.
I don't see why that's a red flag anymore than the abuse itself. If we just go to couples counseling, it's similar... not the same of course, but similar. We may just go to couples counseling. Lately, he's been amazing and wonderful, but of course, I wonder if it's simply the love bombing phase of abuse and whether once he truly "has" me back, that he would revert back to abuse. Although he claims that he wants to devote himself to making me happy and to never losing me again. It could be just all talk though. His actions need to back up his words.

And thanks.... yes, I've been through many battles lately... far too many. Today I feel slightly better.

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I am glad that you are being mindful of this. He has given you many reasons to be skeptical and ultra cautious....
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I am glad that you are being mindful of this. He has given you many reasons to be skeptical and ultra cautious....
@Bill3, yes, I am skeptical and very cautious. However, I also see my vulnerabilities right now due to Covid, being so isolated from people and having had some major job difficulties and upheavals over the last 6 months. This has all made it very difficult for me to stay clear of him. I fell back in with him because I am so vulnerable and alone.

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Finally, a couples therapist can see us. The therapist has dealt with emotional and verbal abuse. Perfect.

I have a sliver of hope.... a tiny sliver, but it's there. My husband is willing to do therapy, and that's one positive step.

Now, he just needs to be receptive to it when we start.... and receptive to changing his behavior.

I am not being unrealistic though.... I know the statistics and data. He needs to really commit to this and I would think we will need to see a counselor for a long time. And then individual therapy for him. We shall see.

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So he's still "my husband"... you didn't file for divorce in the end?
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No.. didn't file. But I will if I must.

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This is going to sound ridiculous to some ppl on here, but in my life for real, starting over at 50 is not appealing in the least. True, lasting friendships are very hard to establish, especially as we get older, and the dating scene is NOT appealing in the least. I've dated for 3+ decades and I am just plain DONE. IF he and I do not work out, I will choose to be single for the remainder of my life. Starting over at my age, with very few CLOSE friends and a shared social music scene? FORGET IT - NOT appealing. I'd FAR rather try to work things out in therapy, and he seems very motivated to make changes. I could be deluding myself, but given what I've experienced through COVID, I don't want to be alone - period. I just do not. I want a life partner.

And please don't try to argue this point with me..... I cannot stand it when people do that and when people try to say being single can be fun, etc, at MY age. NO.... I don't want it. I've been single and it's far more fun when you're younger. Most men my age will want a younger woman... not someone equal in age. I don't want to face a dating scene ever again - not ever. And the bottom line is, I'd far rather have a partner than be alone.

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I’m 38 and I don’t want to join the dating scene either, cos it sounds utterly awful now, so no criticism from me on that point.
While I admittedly have reservations about your husband, you are trying again with open eyes and are prepared to put yourself first if things don’t turn out as they should. Not everyone who decides to reconcile is able or willing to do that, so kudos to you, and good luck.
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