[black-roses]

So on my Monday I have maths my teacher is a male and like I'm so embarrassed and scared that I'm well attracted to him. Today I can't stop obsessing about these thoughts...It's very hard because it's hard to think in that like at the start I would give him eye contact like other people, but I stopped because in my head I felt like I was embarrasing and like he could read what I was thinking. I honestly would die if he ever found out I had these thoughts because honestly I didn't think I was capable of having sexual thoughts. It's not just sexual thoughts but like hanging out with him, I wish I could turn this off because I feel so raw and so vulnerable. I don't know why but these kind of thoughts terrify me. I think a part of it is trauma related due to witnessing my parents relationship. I seriously am paranoid that I make him uncomfortable and it's like gosh I hate it. I hate this. I really do!

[Marie123]

Feelings aren't right or wrong, they simply.....are. We can't help who we are attracted to.

@black-roses and all:

I agree with @Marie123.

But i *enjoy* feeling attracted to someone! Maybe it's because i'm 55 and you sound very young, if you're still in school. It gets easier! Your teacher would probably be flattered if he knew!

As long as you don't act on your feelings, it's okay to just be amused by them. It's your own secret. I've enjoyed many an unrequited love affair in my day! It's pleasurable and there's no chance of getting hurt or rejected.

I'm currently in one with the actor Benicio del Toro and it's a great way of expressing my feelings of romantic love and my occasional desire for sexual healing without getting hurt or a sexually-transmitted disease and i never have to pick up his dirty socks or have sex when i don't want to!!!

BenicioBenicioBenicio!

How i love to love Benicio!!!!!

Urgently hoping you allow yourself to enjoy your attraction to your math teacher -- have fantasies, masturbate, write him letters but destroy them after!

It's perfectly okay to have unrequited love!!! Some of my best loves have been unrequited. Doesn't mean that they were not full of drama and meaning and pleasure.

Wishing you lots of love and light, black-roses!

Jane.

[Werewoman]

I had a hopeless crush on my 6th grade math teacher. Gawd! He was handsome!

When I was a teacher 98% of my students were teenage boys. And while it never became known to me, I'm sure some of those boys thought about me. It's human nature. You just don't act on it.