I hate this job

@ruby2011, it's great you are realizing that you have been in the wrong. And I think you CAN control your behavior towards other people. Feelings may be difficult to control, but behavior can certainly be controlled. We have a choice in how we respond to our emotions and feelings. We can give into them, or we can acknowledge them and CHOOSE another more appropriate behavior in response. For example, you chose to curse and yell at your coworkers in response to the GM distancing himself from you. Instead, you could have chosen to remain nice and courteous to all those around you. But you took out your feelings on everyone else around you.

So what happened at McD's? Did you get fired? You say you cannot talk about it because it's THAT bad, which makes me think you were fired or told not to come back.

Looks like she deactivated her account.

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Originally Posted by rdgrad15 Looks like she deactivated her account.

Thanks for clarifying. I couldnt figure out how her name went from ruby to anon..

Well, it's unfortunate the way this all turned out but we can't force anyone to take our advice.

Hi Ruby, I see you deactivated your account but maybe you're still reading replies?

I just wanted to answer your question of "how scary is my level of obsession... ". The answer will be different from person to person actually, which is basically true of anything, but I don't see your behaviour as scary at all. Okay, there might be some boundary issues here and there - that's almost universal to young people or people learning to grow - and big deal if you raised your voice - it happens - no one has perfect patience - so, for me, I don't see you as scary at all. Are you sneaking around spying and peeping through people's windows? Cutting peoples faces out of photos etc? Planning to commit harm on anyone? No, you're not! Not at all obviously.

To me, you just sound like a decent friendly person - maybe a lonely person seeking connections - someone trying hard to stay in a job, which is admirable - and reaching out for feedback as you go.

In terms of your behaviour, people jump up and down and freak out over hardly anything really, and I don't want you to see yourself as some kind of 'freak' or 'monster' because you're absolutely not. Trust me, I'm a good judge of character. You're a good, decent and quite gutsy person Ruby.

Stay strong and stay well upon your journey. 🙏🙏🙏

Yeah and she will create another account and make it seem like it's someone else. She's done that before.