Independent, social, money, girlfriend

So I’m getting my very first apartment.
I of course got help from my mom as I didn’t get enough help as a kid or teenager with being independent. I keep having thoughts about women and I’m guessing it’s because of my high testosterone since I’m in my early 20s. I want to have a female my age spend the night at my apartment. I was never really good at socializing or talking to new people.
I’ve always been into sports & exercising.
I’m a serious person and would consider myself a good candidate for being a security guard, police officer or semi pro athlete since I’ve always been very strong, fast, athletic and self aware from my adhd.
I have autism but I’m high functioning and I’m trying to transition into being independent because my mom never let me do things on my own and was over protective do I got bullied.
I have ptsd from it and I choose wisely who I want in my life.
I’m very smart & mature.
I try not to get very angry or violent because when I do, everyone around me is scared and either I get out on pills or end up in jail because of my anger and people not listening to me or having bad communication.
I wish I had friends in real life again but I don’t wanna be around the wrong people.
I hate being lonely and having to use technology for friends and I like seeing people in real life because that’s how it should be.
I’m struggling mentally because I’ve came off a lot of prescription pills in the past 6 months and I’m trying to adjust and trying to avoid going back on them so I don’t gain weight and get diabetes or bad kidneys.
It’s not easy but I’m trying to avoid mental hospitals for the rest of my life and never go to jail.
Advice is appreciated.

I guess the best advice I can come up with (probably not useful...) is pursue things one at a time. I would focus on gaining independence first, and a stable job. Then, once you have stability with your job, some savings, and are accustomed to living independently, I might start trying to branch out and build a social network. Finding nice people you click with and cultivating those relationships takes time. And only then would I think about finding a partner.

Congrats on getting your first apartment! It's a big step toward independence and it sounds like you're making progress toward that goal. It's also totally normal to have thoughts about women, especially if you're in your early 20s and have high testosterone.

However, before you invite anyone over to your apartment, make sure you're comfortable with socializing and talking to new people. You mentioned that you have autism and struggle with socializing, so it might be helpful to practice these skills in a safe and controlled environment first.

It's great that you're into sports and exercising, and that you're self-aware of your ADHD. It's also important to recognize your triggers for anger and violence and to work on managing those emotions in a healthy way.

As for making friends, try to find social groups or activities that align with your interests, such as sports teams or fitness classes. This can be a great way to meet new people who share your passions. And remember, it's okay to be selective about who you let into your life.

Lastly, don't be afraid to seek professional help if you need it. Coming off prescription pills can be challenging and it's important to have a support system in place. Keep working towards your goals and take it one step at a time. You got this!