Just lost the only friend Ive had all my adult life

I dont know why Im writing this. I just need to say it out loud perhaps.

I just ruined the best and only friendship Ive had all my adult life.
And I made it all happen by myself. Since the day I met her, I knew this day was gonna come, and like a self fulfilling prophecy I managed to destroy the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I cannot describe how bad this feels. I dont know what to do now. Theres nothing for me in my life anymore. Im 40 years old, and finding a fiend like her is something that happens once in. lifetime. I dont see what the point in continuing now is.

Ive quit my job and have nothing to live for. I loved her with all of my heart.

Welcome to MSF Robroy. Do you want to tell us a bit more about what happened?

Welcome to msf Robroy. Do you want to share more?

I’m sorry that happened and would you like to explain what went down? You don’t have to if you don’t want to but you're always welcome to.

I am so sorry you feel this way. The end of a meaningful relationship can feel like the end of meaning. However, it is important to find your self-worth based on yourself. Who are you without this relationship, as an individual? The answer to that question is often dependent on your mood at the time of answering, so it is important to remain objective and holistic. Don't just answer based on negative self-talk. You will be left with an answer of a large list of relationships, traits, quirks, titles, and responsibilities that define who you are. You will find some of those articles to be negative, some to be positive. You have to find your value in the positive. You have to strengthen the positive. As for the negative, you will need to address how to change or accept those things about yourself. You don't have to take on that task alone - support communities like these can help.


I do not know you or the context of what happened but your simple act of expressing guilt and regret shows to me you are someone worthy of happiness. I don't know if anything I have said is valuable or even right but I wish you nothing but the best. If you feel comfortable, please share more about what happened in the community or to a therapist.