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Somehow, I am getting really anxious. I don’t know what to do there. Is this weird feeling like something inside me is trying to get out I have so many things to do and everyone tells me to not overthink so much cleaning is very easy. Except for the motivation that I need to get up and go. I can easily clean. I keep bathrooms clean. I sweep and mop the floor but only tidiness difficult. Because of my mental state.
Maybe it’s the anxiety. So anxiety supposed to be a fear. I have some self obsessed character traits like I tend to zone out. Sometimes I change topic suddenly. Somehow feel like I don’t care about other people. This frustrate my friends a lot but none of us know how to change it. Maybe I should go to therapy and ask my therapist. I want to ask her how to care about others in such a way that they don’t leave me or get annoyed at me
My dad is very patient with me. He thinks I’m childish.
But I need more friends because I need more Feedback
Therapy is expensive
What should I do? Where should I go? It’s a painful.
I love to use my pocket money for buying books
And stationery
This time I think I use it on therapy
I want her to tell me every thing that’s wrong with me
Every mistake that I am making
Am I self obsessed?
Am I narcissistic?
Am I stuck up?
I want her to tell me
What am I even doing with my life?
My greatest fear is being immature
It feels like they might not be friends, if I am immature
I need to fix this.