Closure

@ RockyRoad007

OMG, you are a lifesaver. I was struggling with the thought of turning into a big cold grey rock. As you can tell, I’m in hell right now. There isn’t much that is beautiful surrounding me. So the visual of me turning into a rock was such a downer. Your flower visual sounds so amazing. I will definitely use this method. I will use the lotus as my flower. I found this on google for the lotus flower.

Purity, The lotus flower can rise from muddy water without getting stained, representing the ability to maintain integrity and ideals in the face of adversity.

Rebirth,
The lotus flower's cyclical nature, from bud to bloom to retreat, symbolizes rebirth and renewal.

Transcendence,
The lotus flower blooms from the underworld into the light, representing the transcending of man's spirit over worldly matter.

Thank you so much. Thanks for taking time to help people in need. It’s means so much to me. It took a lot of courage for me to express my feeling to strangers online. But, I wished I knew sooner, seeing how kind and helpful everyone is. I was afraid people would judge me, because my life is screwed up. But, it’s quite the opposite. Everyone has been thoughtful and insightful. I’m grateful God bless you. 🙏🏼🩵

There are so many ways to use your flower.
In my darkest moments, I would create a rose in my imagination and put it in front of me with the face of the flower facing my heart area. I would ask it to take my pain and sadness. I would allow all my pain and sorrows to pour into this rose. I would then blow this rose up and feel the blessings rain down on me.
This is not a one and done, I had to do it a lot, but over time the layers of my anguish were released from me.

Create a giant lotus around your house where you are living.

Another thing you could do which you may find hard is to bless your brother. Not out loud, but in your mind. And with heart intention, not mindlessly. You can say "bless you" or "May you be blessed", whichever feels more natural to you. You may find this could be transformative to the whole household. Your brother is in dire need of blessings, he is in pain.

I like "may you be blessed" when I don't want to feel like a hypocrite blessing a jerk, but they are still being blessed. When you bless another, you are also blessing yourself.