[myoasis89]

I feel all alone in my life. I feel the only person I've loved in life is my current bf. He's the only thing on this planet that makes me happy. I don't want to be around anyone else but him. I'm not close to my parents or my sister who is 30 years older...or my brother who is 12 years older. I went to live with my brother so I could go to school...but his gf hated me because I woudln't go out drinking with her...or become like her...so I live on my own now and go to school. My bf and I have been dating 6 months. It's the first time I've fallen in love (except for the time I fell for my teacher...who I wrote an email to because I was feeling upset at te just he time in grade ten...feeling I had family problems...he tried his best to comfort me and make me feel special...but after getting out of highschool...I realised what the real world was about)...right now I'm in my second year at college...I think I want to be a nurse but I'm not sure. My bf says he wants to take care of me...he says I'm his baby...I melted at these words but realised this is not fair to him. It's not his fault I have fammily problems. He just came out of med school. He wants to be a surgeon. I look up to him and I try to study hard like him. We study together and he's like my rock. I don't want him to feel sorry for me...although I would be devastated if things didn't work out. I truly care for him. at school I don't have any close relationships. I just take care of myself and get my work done. I wish there were other people out there who could love me...I don't have grandparents or aunts or uncles...I don't have anyone except my bf...he's my world...he's what keeps me going and gives meaning to my life...I want to be the best for him which is why i work hard...