[lmg103]

so i was dating this guy for almost 2 years, and then before the summer we broke up and didnt really talk much over the summer...we were both just doing our own things getting ready for college and stuff. and we didnt really end things good. but then recently we started talking again...and we arent close both far away at school. and he randomly decided to drive to my school and like this was after we hadn't talked for a while he just shows up and wants sex from me and then leaves..when im sitting there hurt and upset over it. like i dont get it, for two years i was with him. i regret those two years of my life so much right now. i lost my virginity to him....he's always going to be the guy who i first loved. and he keeps continuing to hurt me....dont really want to talk about what he has done yet. im not ready. but in the back of my head i still love him when i shouldnt. i push back the bad things he has done and think about the good things. but i just dont know how to move on. i cant have a relationship that is based on sex!! i mean yea i want that to be part of my relationship but i need someone there for me too. i just feel so alone right now and this is making it worse im just stuck and lost and don't know what to do. im just going on and on but ya

[turquoisesea]

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