[roxy_ann]

b/f of 5 yrs on and off 3-4 times. 2 year old son with him. we move the tha USVI a year ago from the states. big move for me i never left my state. we ran from all the drama. he cheated on me a few times and i have a fam violence charge against him. so we moved hear b/c he wanted to start over and try to be a new man. hes better. but not by much. i still get called a ***** in frount of my son. my son gets cussed at. hes sleep deprived, drinking alot(never at home though), i love living here but i miss my fam bad and i just had a baby and i feel like i took him away. we have no fam here but his mom and step-dad they dont have time for him.its sad. n e ways im tyred of being here and want to go back. my b/f play's music in bars here so alot of late nights. but latly hes been stying out till 4or 5. he plays 4-5 times a week too. and when he does that he sleeps all day and he gets up and eats and goes to work. we never see each other, never have sex,never talk or unless we r aruing im sick of it, im depressed, im acting out, yealling, saying things i dont mean, panick attacks. and hes just getting worse hes staring to lie about small things so how do i no hes not lieing about big things. when we r getting along i love it but we arnt. he wants to party and i want to do the fam thing. i would leave but i have to move over seas thats horrible and i dont wanna deal with it and maybe we might work out but im co-dependent bad. im putting my life on hold for him. i love him. help...