[MASIMO]

OMG, last night I sent a "love letter" to my T. He has been on vacation
and I cant see him this week. He called me yesterday to check in.
Hearing his voice sparked this in me. What's he going to do with this?
I haven't heard back from him yet and I'm nervous about it.

"It's from my heart to say I feel safe with you like no other.
It's from my heart to say I long to be with you and think of you always.
I can image you in your mancave, a safe den for you.
Forgive me, but I cant help imagine what it would be like to be there
with you, safe and hidden, Just for a little while.
The images provide more comfort to me than reality and the loneliness takes away.
I know you can only give me so much of who you are. I am uncertain how much.
Its from my heart to say I would give you all of who I am.
I know there is nothing that would ever make me that special, that deserving or even wanted.
I told you I loved you. You said you would just have to get used to it .
I never anticipated this would happen. But you have opened my heart...a wonderous happening,
unfortunately at a most vulnerable time for me. Please protect it until it can fly on it's own."

[roads]

That's quite beautiful. I think your T will handle it appropriately, considerately your relationship. You understand this happens a lot in therapy? You know about transference?

You write beautifully. Your T can't help but be moved moved by your words. I hope you never regret what you wrote. It's part of your healing.

Post all you want about this. Write me if you want to. I've been where you are ...

I wrote a Thank You Card to my Therapist but I think it turned out more like a love letter in hindsight. It's nowhere near as well-written as yours but here it is:

Thank you for everything that you have done for me. I am so appreciative, grateful and respectful for how you have helped me. You have given me genuine belief and hope that there are decent people in this world.

No matter what happens in the rest of my life or how things change you will always be the first person that ever listened to me, made me feel welcome and like a human being and that means so much to me and is something that I will never forget. That is why it is so difficult for me to say goodbye. Although we will never see each other again whenever I am having troubles I will remember the advice, help and support that you have given to me and it will help me to get through things. It also makes me feel happy to know that you will continue to make other people feel happy just like you have with me.

I am glad that I was given the opportunity to meet you and I wish you the best of luck in everything you do.

Thank you so much

I have also since written a poem dedicated to her but she will never see it:

Your beauty to me is beyond compare,
Your face, your eyes, your long, black hair,
At a time in my life when I felt scared,
You’ve always listened, you’ve always cared.

Kindness like yours is not easily found,
Long lost and buried beneath the ground,
In a world full of darkness, you shine so bright,
Just like a firefly deep in the night.

I’ve cherished every word you’ve spoken,
In this society creaking and broken,
You’ve always made me feel so warm,
Like a bright ray of light you’ve calmed this storm.

There is no picture I could take,
Nor no sculpture I could make,
That could give justice to your face,
Full of life and full of grace.

If only you knew my feelings for you,
They are so strong, they are so true,
If only you knew quite what you mean to me,
And how big a smile that you bring to me.

[crazycanbegood]

ah masimo. i understand you feel you are in love with your T. i truly hope he works on your transference, as he doesnt seem to be now. From reading many of your posts, I can see that the feelings you have for me are ever present on your mind, and I fear that it will interfere in your therapy and hurt you in the end.