[growlycat]

I thought my feelings for health T went away (a moment of annoyance was helpful for that) but now they are back with a vengence.

He is helping me w/health issues but as I get more fit, my libido is out of control w/no outlet at the moment. I like this guy but really, sexual fantasies? I'm annoyed with myself over this. Transference blah blah blah. I know the drill. I know how this works.

Doesn't help that he is charming and has an overwhelming presence in a small room. His intensity and energy are catchy. On the way into a session he smiled in a way that seemed more genuine than we first met. He really wants to help.
He is way more "alpha dog" than my regular T. It is kind of a turn on.

Hard not to put myself down for being so....sad

sad lonely growly with midlife sexual frustrations and no where to go

[nicoleflynn]

I hear ya.......no sex since my divorce (10 years!) and my libidio is still on "kill."

[growlycat]

I'm seeing health T on Monday.

(sigh) I hope he knows what is going on so I don't have to bring it up.
Help me through this, please T.

[Wren_]

is he (as in, has he been) helping you through it growly?

[growlycat]

Hi Tigergirl-

Thanks for asking!! I'm not sure if he knows how I feel. I think he is doing CBT so I don't think those kinds of therapists focus on transference as much.

I don't know how to bring it up. I feel like I've read everything on the internet about transference/erotic transference. Not much advice out there on how to use it in a healthy positive way in treatment. I would never act on it.

My thoughts feel kind of crazy--everything from sweet fantasies about being cared for to overtly sexual thoughts. I don't even know much about him personally.

Wonder if I'd be relieved or sorry to bring it up?

[Wren_]

It does seem to vary so much between individual therapists and how they view transference and other attachments; and then how they respond based on those views. Sure makes it hard for clients to know whether to mention it or not when we don't know the reaction they will have!

Wonder if I'd be relieved or sorry to bring it up?

hopefully ... he would respond in a way that would be helpful and give you a sense of relief ... have you been able to tell your other T about it

[growlycat]

Telling my other T....oh boy. Something tells me Main T is already jealous at least professionally that I am seeking help elsewhere for health concerns. We have such a long history together, I'm trying to be sensitive to that. But I'm sure he would handle it well.

Less than 2 hrs till my appt!!

[Wren_]

hope it goes well I can understand the added complications with main t when you say that

[avlady]

Good Luck today!!!

[growlycat]

oooohhhh I am such a coward!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I think I talked about everything but my unwanted attraction. I'm sure my sexually laced anecdotes clued him in to what I mess I am. Those anecdotes were pretty spontaneous but as obvious as Freud's cigar. WTF is wrong with me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He confirmed that much of what he is doing is cbt-ish , which probably means he doesn't want to hear my daddy issues, sexual impulses and other oddities. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Wonder how obvious I am. I really really hope he addresses it so I don't have to. Pleeeaaassse help me T, keep me from continuing to be a complete jackass

[Melody_Bells]

I support you Growly Cat. This sounds very hard! Will you make more obvious hints? Let's hope he hears you and helps you to talk about it.