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LonesomeTonight · Mar 09, 2017 at 06:01 PM

I agree, stay strong and don't go. When do you see T2 again? And does he allow out of session contact? Just thinking if you're having second thoughts tomorrow, you could contact T2, and he could help convince you to stay away. Hugs...

ramonajones · Mar 09, 2017 at 10:29 PM

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

I agree, stay strong and don't go. When do you see T2 again? And does he allow out of session contact? Just thinking if you're having second thoughts tomorrow, you could contact T2, and he could help convince you to stay away. Hugs...

T2 says I can email him or call whenever I need to. I prefer email so sometimes I email him a couple times a day. He even said if I didn't know what to do during my session with T1 tomorrow I could go to his (T2's) office suite and hang out in one of the meditation rooms with my baby. He said his trauma patients do that sometimes when they have an anniversary of something tough that's happened to them or just need a space where they feel safe.

Luckily(?) my babysitter is sick and can't come tomorrow so that means I really can't go. I've had a LOT of suicidal thoughts today. I drove around for an hour crying and listening to Adele. It's not great. I feel like I'm going to have to tell my husband what's happened pretty soon because I can't stand being around him and lying anymore. I think about suicide A LOT. I'm afraid this may be the beginning of the end of my marriage.

LonesomeTonight · Mar 10, 2017 at 08:05 AM

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Originally Posted by ramonajones

T2 says I can email him or call whenever I need to. I prefer email so sometimes I email him a couple times a day. He even said if I didn't know what to do during my session with T1 tomorrow I could go to his (T2's) office suite and hang out in one of the meditation rooms with my baby. He said his trauma patients do that sometimes when they have an anniversary of something tough that's happened to them or just need a space where they feel safe.

Luckily(?) my babysitter is sick and can't come tomorrow so that means I really can't go. I've had a LOT of suicidal thoughts today. I drove around for an hour crying and listening to Adele. It's not great. I feel like I'm going to have to tell my husband what's happened pretty soon because I can't stand being around him and lying anymore. I think about suicide A LOT. I'm afraid this may be the beginning of the end of my marriage.

That's awesome that your T2 said you can come hang out in the meditation room (and I love the idea of those--wish my T/MC had those, as it would be preferable to sitting in my car in the parking lot for a bit after appointments if I'm upset).

As for your H, don't tell him yet. Hopefully you'll start feeling better once you really get away from T1. Have you told T2 about the suicidal thoughts? If not, you need to. Hang in there...

ramonajones · Mar 10, 2017 at 08:10 AM

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Originally Posted by junkDNA

Hey, hang in there. Please. It gets better.

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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight

That's awesome that your T2 said you can come hang out in the meditation room (and I love the idea of those--wish my T/MC had those, as it would be preferable to sitting in my car in the parking lot for a bit after appointments if I'm upset).

As for your H, don't tell him yet. Hopefully you'll start feeling better once you really get away from T1. Have you told T2 about the suicidal thoughts? If not, you need to. Hang in there...

Is it really going to get better? I don't know how long I can go on like this. There are NO breaks in the pain.

T2 knows about the suicidal thoughts.

junkDNA · Mar 10, 2017 at 08:59 AM

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Originally Posted by ramonajones

Is it really going to get better? I don't know how long I can go on like this. There are NO breaks in the pain.

T2 knows about the suicidal thoughts.

Yes. I am speaking from experience

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LonesomeTonight Always in This Twilight Member Since Feb 2015 Location: US Posts: 20,911 (SuperPoster!) 9 75.2k hugs given	Mar 09, 2017 at 06:01 PM #1 I agree, stay strong and don't go. When do you see T2 again? And does he allow out of session contact? Just thinking if you're having second thoughts tomorrow, you could contact T2, and he could help convince you to stay away. Hugs...
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