[scarcejoy]

My therapist and I rarely communicate outside of session. When my therapist does contact me outside of session is to tell me if it's ok with me if session starts an hour later or if she isn't going to be able to make it that day. When I see my therapist's name pop up on my notification on my phone, I get a little excited. I feel like as if there butterflies in my stomach. When I am trying to respond back, my fingers are shaking. I feel nervous while we communicate. I only communicate with my therapist if I am not going to be there. Or if I have an event to go to and my therapist asks me to tell her about it but that happens rarely.

Even though we don't say much to each other when we do communicate, it feels like as if it where something exciting. It feels like as if a school crush responded to my text. My day brightens up when my therapist texts me or emails me. When there is out of session contact, my romantic feelings towards her stand out to me.

[DP_2017]

makes sense. my T got very very into out of session contact, and i got addicted. it lead me to believe he felt the same i did, friendship possibly.... i learned this past week that was very much not the case, I've been left feeling confused and frustrated etc

he still wants to do this type of stuff to keep a routine for me but I'm not sure yet, its a dangerous trap to put myself in again.... but yes when we did regularly text or email or phone calls, it was the best part of my day usually. made me super giddy.

I would say it's very good to keep it minimal as you do, and the feeling of excitement is normal.

Having next to no outside contact has been my saving grace.

I always dropped off letters between sessions but that no longer serves a good purpose for me. Transference is hard enough to deal with without seeing/talking your T more often. I think it just plays into the addiction and is not helpful at all to probably most people with severe attachment. It will just prolong things in my opinion. At least this way I know I can hopefully pull myself out of this

[UnclePete]

I'm currently in Love with my T. So I understand this. If she texted me randomly during the day about our next appointment I'd light up like nothing. Transferrence is not enjoyable for me and I wish you the best and you are so not alone feeling the way you feel.

[DP_2017]

well I caved, ha!

We are back to the same old stuff, and I am still super excited when I hear from him. Sigh...