Attraction towards therapist

Moonday

I'm in love with my therapist. I want to have a romantic relationship with him when the therapy has ended. He knows about this, that it's "my dream". Before I had told him about it I had dreams a night which I told him about. We talked about them and he took notice about some sexual content. At the surface it was about my brother but at least I think that it rather was about my therapist, but I kept quiet about that. Shortly afterwards my therapist turned his head to the side and gave me a very intense and long gaze and then he took his hands and held them over his face and looked at me through his fingers. I hoped for and thought that he was attracted to me. I later on told him about a dream that was about a man who loved another man who didn't love him back beacuse he wasn't homosexual like the other man. Discussing the dream my T told me that this was a VERY special reason for the attraction and love to not be reciprocated, a VERY special reason, and asked me if I understood what he meant. I said yes, and thought he meant that my love would be reciprocated if he had not been my therapist. Then I found out he has a girl friend and my trust on him is a bit lower now. I feel extremely sad at times. I have talked to my therapist about it and next I want to talk more about what he said to me about the very special reason. Even though he now claims he doesn't recall it. I would appreciate discussing these things with you if you would like.

Blueowl

I'd say you need a new therapist, if you need therapy, so that you receive professional and unbiased feedback.

Makes sense that you would fall for someone you are able to share intimate details about your life.

But that has never happened to me, so I cannot relate.

Moonday

Thanks for your opinion. Things I have told my T have made him ask if I'm comfortable with my attraction towards him and about how I think it affects the therapy. I have told him I'm fine with it. But, before I had revealed my attraction, he got the impression from some dream content that I was uncomfortable with my attraction which he told me along with explaining some basics about why attraction can happen in therapy. I really like him, but feels rather strange and uncomfortable now to imagine trusting him again like before, to again get the feeling that he loves me and to feel attracted to him.

Moonday

I told him I'm ok with being in love with him, as I said, but I also said that based on what happens it could potentially lead to hurt feelings...