[vanmeekp]

I feel very disconnected from God right now. It's been hard for me too pray at times. I know he never leaves my side but I just don't sense Him right now. I have been very tired and now realize that's it's my depression returning full force. I have been rude at church and my coworkers have also noticed. I need prayer and I know I need to pray. I hope my Dr can help. My next visit is next week and I am bringing my husband with me so he can help me explain how much this is affecting my life. I need new meds. I want to be able to have fun and laugh and enjoy life again.

[greywolf2]

It sounds like you are on the right track. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers in hopes you can find your way back to god in your own time. You do deserve to be happy and have fun and enjoy your life to the fullest. It also sounds like if your husband goes with you he is very supportive. It sounds like you are heading in the right direction and I am very happy for you. If you ever need to talk i am here. This place is a great place for support.

Welcome, Vanmeekp!
I'm sorry you lost your connection at the moment. Maybe see this as a test to see if you can overcome the bad times and come back with more inner strength than before. Sunny days will come again, always count on that, vanmeekp.

I hope for the best for you. Try to have fun and laugh again before your doctor's appointment. Don't wait!

Please smile and happy posting in PsychCentral!,
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[SunnyD]

I know so well what you are saying. Being rude at church or at my friends is the worst. Even to balling God out. But it is a symptom of hypo mania for me. I have finally learned to excuse myself or Klonopin really helps.
I am not is a strong spiritual place right now and feel funny about asking help from God because if it.
Anyway that is what is happening with me right now. My faith waxes and wanes with my moods.

[Jewels]

I so hear the need to connect with God loud and clear. Sometimes it is all I can do to go to church and sing and listen to the sermon. Sometimes it is all too much, and I feel separated from the God who loves me. Being in that position is kind of hard, because you know what you ought to do, but you don't have the strength to do it. Sometimes the words don't come, and you are left wondering where you went wrong. I will pray that you will find your happiness and peace once again. Remember that happiness doesn't come from the outside, it comes from within. And sometimes it takes just talking about how you are feeling with your dr, or perhaps being put on different meds, to get you back to that happy, joyful self.

May God be a present reality as you search for the path you were on but lost.

Jewels

Good advice!!!

I am afraid I am at the same place right now, I have been feeling away from him going on a year now. I have tried to read my bible, and pray but it just isn't the same as it was before.

[vanmeekp]

All of you seem to know exactly what I am feeling. It's good to know that I am not alone in this. I want to find my way back. I do read daily and pray so that keeps me somewhat connected. I just lack the sense of His presence most of the time like I am not worthy of it or don't trust Him enough for help. I have the knowledge of all he can do it's my heart that needs to know it if that makes any sense.

[IceCreamKid]

Let go and let God be God. I sense you straining; try living moment by moment. There have been many times in my life when my only prayer to God was "God you know what is in my heart." When I had strained and strained to put into coherent thought the misery that was in my life, and the harder I tried, the more miserable I was. But if prayer is conversation with God or our thoughts directed towards God, then recognize that God already knows everything that is in your life. Everything. Take comfort in that and try finding quiet moments to sit and just be, with God.

[Strenght]

Im new here and im glad that the lord directed me to this forum. I feel the same way that a lot of you feel. I know one thing for sure about our God and that one thing is that he is faithfull.