[yumi]

I have long suspected there could be a connection with these, but I'm not sure. All I know is I have suffered over 4 decades , living with MI.

I feel like my life is surreal, like I am being controlled by a force I can't defend myself from and I don't know what it is

I watched a YouTube video last night on 10 symptoms of demonic/spiritual oppression and I cried. I have experienced all 10.

I have felt like my true , authentic self has always been held as a hostage and I don't know why. Why did it target me? Why does it target people?

I guess I am searching for answers outside of the box to genetics and environmental causes. I suppose, for me at least, because I do have faith, maybe there really has been a battle over my soul after all. A brutal one at that. Im exhausted . Absolutely exhausted. I keep asking God to just receive my spirit, yet I keep waking up to a new day. I really am exhausted . I cry so much. I want it to be over. I want to be free from this battle. I am so angry it is even occurring at all I didn't ask to participate in this. Yet I'm here. Why???

[blur]

i'm sorry you are suffering so. a friend of mine said once that the demons like to piggy back on one's traumas in life. i think this is true. sometimes it is fear or something about the trauma that can allow the demons entry into one's life and yes that seems really unfair. other times it is involvement in things (e.g. drugs, the occult, etc.) that open us up to the demonic. you might want to check out dr. charles kraft's book deep wounds deep healing. i've received prayer from people who have been trained by him and they really know their stuff. there are people who can help you with this or whatever it is you are suffering from.

[yumi]

Thank you, blur. That looks like a very interesting book.

I have felt this tug-of-war all my life. Its like some force is there preventing me from keeping any happiness I ever find. Its insidious and haunting. Its like something just keeps feeding off my spirit, overtaking it and devouring it. I'm ready for peace. Really ready for it.

[NWgirl2013]

Has anyone else read the book, "People of the Lie" ? It was an eye opener and made me feel stronger in my awareness.

[blur]

yumi, you mentioned that you keep asking God to receive your spirit. i realize you are in a really bad place to be asking that, but i wonder if that could be causing some of the demonic oppression. i don't know if it is, but it might be possible. when i was in a 12-step program i found the 11th step to be very helpful. it says to pray "only for knowledge of God's will and the power to carry that out". that is a prayer that God will definitely answer because it is in accordance with what he wants for you in your current situation. another thing a friend of mine, who has tons of faith, suggested recently is to speak out loud the truth over yourself. what i like about this is that you don't even need to worry about whether or not you believe it just yet but can just keep speaking it over yourself. please don't give up hope. God is with you and cares for you very much despite your circumstances.

[PoorPrincess]

Originally Posted by NWgirl2013

Has anyone else read the book, "People of the Lie" ? It was an eye opener and made me feel stronger in my awareness.

Thanks for this, NWgirl.
I just read the wiki synopsis and it is indeed interesting.

[yumi]

Originally Posted by blur

yumi, you mentioned that you keep asking God to receive your spirit. i realize you are in a really bad place to be asking that, but i wonder if that could be causing some of the demonic oppression. i don't know if it is, but it might be possible. when i was in a 12-step program i found the 11th step to be very helpful. it says to pray "only for knowledge of God's will and the power to carry that out". that is a prayer that God will definitely answer because it is in accordance with what he wants for you in your current situation. another thing a friend of mine, who has tons of faith, suggested recently is to speak out loud the truth over yourself. what i like about this is that you don't even need to worry about whether or not you believe it just yet but can just keep speaking it over yourself. please don't give up hope. God is with you and cares for you very much despite your circumstances.

Hi,
Yes, I have been praying for the knowledge of Gods will, but I'm not getting any clear answers yet

This is not an isolated thing with the oppression. I've felt it my whole life. When I fight back from it, I end up fighting the wrong ways and I don't want to do that anymore. I don't know how to explain it.

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[dmhobbit]

Originally Posted by yumi

I have long suspected there could be a connection with these, but I'm not sure. All I know is I have suffered over 4 decades , living with MI.

I feel like my life is surreal, like I am being controlled by a force I can't defend myself from and I don't know what it is

I watched a YouTube video last night on 10 symptoms of demonic/spiritual oppression and I cried. I have experienced all 10.

I have felt like my true , authentic self has always been held as a hostage and I don't know why. Why did it target me? Why does it target people?

I guess I am searching for answers outside of the box to genetics and environmental causes. I suppose, for me at least, because I do have faith, maybe there really has been a battle over my soul after all. A brutal one at that. Im exhausted . Absolutely exhausted. I keep asking God to just receive my spirit, yet I keep waking up to a new day. I really am exhausted . I cry so much. I want it to be over. I want to be free from this battle. I am so angry it is even occurring at all I didn't ask to participate in this. Yet I'm here. Why???

Dear Yumi,

I just want you to know you are not alone...

***WARNING TRIGGERS***

I too think I suffer from demonic oppression since I was a little boy. One time I was in a leaf pile as a six year old kid and wanted to light it on fire and be surrounded by fire... wait there is more... also at that age I wanted to give my mom a surprise and instead of kissing her I bit her breast and was promptly slapped across the room by my father... jump to present day and I am a empath and so, also do the occasional paranormal investigation and may have more than I bargained for and may have brought something home with me from last investigation/séance. I do NOT normally do séances because that is not allowed in my beliefs - to make contact with the spirit world, but it was necessary to bring out the more aggressive haunting spirits at the house I was investigating... anyhow, for instance... my cats will occasionally look (both of them) at something in space in my apartment or will freak out after sitting comfortably in my lap. I take what I do seriously and yes taunting and so forth works or it would not be forbidden but I do this to try and give answers and reasons to the people that live in haunted houses... just like Zak, Nick, and Aaron from "Ghost Adventures" on the travel channel.

So I now pray daily, don't drink or drug, and take my medication because without it, (not with it) I lose my grip on reality and ability to live on my own without any remaining family members... sadly I am still grieving over the loss of my mom and stepdad November of 2012. Mother's day is coming up and I had my p-doc up my Xanax (a crutch if you will) so I won't snap... I may break down and cry but that is ok.

You are probably like me in having all ten things associated with "demonic oppression". If you would like we could talk more privately by email but I will leave that up to you. I also suffer from nightmares every single night.

Wishing you much peace and blessings...

~dmhobbit~

[blur]

Originally Posted by yumi

Hi,
Yes, I have been praying for the knowledge of Gods will, but I'm not getting any clear answers yet

that's good. please don't give up.

This is not an isolated thing with the oppression. I've felt it my whole life. When I fight back from it, I end up fighting the wrong ways and I don't want to do that anymore. I don't know how to explain it.

i probably should have posted that on your other thread. please don't think i'm judging you because i've so been there too. it's just that it might have caused the OBE and be attracting more spirits. i do understand that you meant this isn't a new thing. i've usually found it works best to not try to deal with this stuff alone.

[seeker1950]

Originally Posted by NWgirl2013

Has anyone else read the book, "People of the Lie" ? It was an eye opener and made me feel stronger in my awareness.

Yes, NWgirl, I read that book years ago. I found it very enlightening. Since then, I've attracted many such people, whom now I view as sociopaths, or in one or two cases, psychopaths. I guess I never had good discernment or maybe one would label me naïve. Eventually, after allowing lifelong conflict and chaos in my life, I developed the ability to listen to my inner voice/my gut instinct which I had ignored.

As to the OP, regarding demonic oppression, my opinion is that you are relinquishing control to something other than your own good judgment. Also, if you truly feel there are demons affecting your life, then seriously consider counseling. YOU are the one in control of your life, your destiny, the minutia of each daily, hourly choice you make.

[LoneLabRat]

Originally Posted by blur

pray "only for knowledge of God's will and the power to carry that out". that is a prayer that God will definitely answer because it is in accordance with what he wants for you in your current situation.

That is perfect!

[Fuzzybear]