[eggplantlife]

Why would god let me go through depression for so long?
Maybe because it took thing long to one to really accept god.
I've had felt spiritual before without set belief found by normal ways. I just believed there was someone or something.

Now, I don't know if I can mention the name on this site as I can't seem to post to social groups for some reason.

I've been doing a lot of prayers. But why is god letting me go through depression? It's hell. Living this life is hell. Most of it have been joyless. Joys disappear.

And why is god letting me to have a life I don't like and when I keep changing it, it gets worse. Better in some areas but still worse in others. It's like the balance are always off.

Why does god do that? And why do people say the good is from god, but when bad things happen, it's from men?

I guess I just don't have the right questions. But why do god not make me feel better? I want to feel better.

[eggplantlife]

I can't get treatment so all I can do now is pray. Please help me pray for me and others who can't get help.

[eggplantlife]

Help!!!!

[eggplantlife]

I got worse as the night went on. Really feeling complete sadness now. Really want to be loved and give love.

[(JD)]

God doesn't override our own wills...and bad habits (stinkin' thinkin') automatically.

He loves you.

We all suffer from the decline of humanity. He will fix this for us soon.



(See the post stickied at the top of the psychotherapy forum: 10 cognitive distortions.... it really helps alleviate depression if you work on the solutions. (Regardless of how or why you became depressed---no judging.)

[regretful]

You're in my thoughts and prayers. I struggle with some of the same questions. I too am not in therapy, nor am I taking any medication. I pray, mainly for others, because it takes the focus off of me. I hope that your day gets better.

[eggplantlife]

I did pray for others then I started to pray for me more tonight than I normally would. I just wanted to be relieved fast. I think I'm starting to feel a little better than I have throughout the night.

[AllonsY]

There's a Hindu god that is the giver and remover of obstacles, and also the God of Wisdom - as someone who isn't a Hindu myself (I'm of no one religion, really, just a spiritual traveler I guess) - the deeper message about who He supposedly is always resonated with me.

I think those attributes are a concept that, whatever you believe "God" or "the Divine" means, no matter what religion or spiritual path you have, has truth in it.

I'm not taking a stance either way whether that God exists (that's a specific religious matter based on whether you believe in a specific religion), but that obstacles are put before us in life, and wisdom is gained in life because of them - and in wisdom is truth, and in finding truth (all religions or paths have different words for this, "nirvana", "enlightenment", "stillness" in Luke "the Kingdom of God", so many names -) there are no obstacles.

It's like the saying, "A smooth sea never made a skilled sailor." I can't begin to pretend to have the answers as to why we're destined to hit certain "waves" in life, but as nightmarish as I can find my own life to be, I still believe that it is my obstacles that help build me toward where I need to be. And while I'm not always good at it, personally - the key is to try and keep the faith. That'll help you face the waves that make you stronger - that give you spiritual wisdom in ways and things that you aren't even aware right now you need to obtain.

Good luck, I'll put you in my prayers.

I ask myself this every day. Why would God let humans go through interminable suffering, and if he does, what kind of a God is he? You might not like this answer if you are religious/spiritual, but to me, I tell myself that mental illness has nothing to do with God. Clear factors are genetic and environmental I'm afraid, not spiritual.

[eggplantlife]

I never used to think depression had anything to do with god. I used to think it was medical, but now that I've been doing positive thinking and trying to change, I'm asking about god. It's because what I have tried didn't work. Some people said that they like me better medicated and that I'm better to get along with, but my life didn't change for the better. I think that's why I stop taking the medications sometimes. This time, I had no choice. I just don't have the means to get medicated so I have to figure out other ways to solve my problem.

[eggplantlife]

I have never tried to solve my depression through god before. I never thought it had anything to do spiritual before. I have read that even though some people believe in god, they still have depression and that religion didn't help with that.

[eggplantlife]

Originally Posted by (JD)

(See the post stickied at the top of the psychotherapy forum: 10 cognitive distortions.... it really helps alleviate depression if you work on the solutions. (Regardless of how or why you became depressed---no judging.)

I don't see the sticky. I'll try again.

[glok]

15 Common Cognitive Distortions | Psych Central
Fixing Cognitive Distortions | Psych Central

[eggplantlife]

Burns is good book. He helped me to stop negative self talk in the mornings. I talked back to it. But I still have the depression and mornings are toughest and they changed so u don't realize it anymore.

I read a lot of books. I tried a lot of those things, but I'm not better. What's worst is that during the process, I lost the people who were the closest to me. Lost meaning they left me. Some leave me saying that they want me to find happiness. They just leave me saying they want the best for me. But what they seem to say is they want the best for themselves and their happiness. Because I'm not happy they are gone. Then again, it was hard living with them. But I do miss them a lot. Why would god let this happen? I wanted to be okay. I want them to be with me. At the time, I didn't but I didn't realize it at the time.

For a while, I thought I had inner peace but outside didn't show through. I wanted it so badly.

Everything will be okay. I'm telling myself. Everything will be okay. God loves me. Everything will be okay.

[birdpumpkin]

I have the same questions eggplantlife. I do believe in God and the power of prayer, but there are still questions. Yesterday while visiting mom and dad, dad was telling me how they had been having a hard time with bills and that somehow they ended up having $1400 in the bank that they can't account for. They believe God put it there for them somehow, and dad was saying how God helps "His people." But I sat there wondering why, after 7 months of praying DAILY, almost begging God to please return my 2 missing cats, or help me or someone else find them or SOMETHING, why they're still gone. And I always notice how if someone's prayer is answered, it's always, "Hallelujah!! God answers prayer!!" And when the prayer goes unanswered, like mine, "it's just not what He wants for you" or "not meant to be" or anything else similar. And I question why in the world God wouldn't want me to have my 2 cats back. I mean why not?? And I get angry. I've had a hard time in life to where I just feel like my life is a whole big mistake sometimes. Even before I lost everything in the fire I've had a hard time in my marriage, hard time dealing with my Asperger's son, no friends and so lonely, quit college and wish I hadn't now, quit work after my son was born and wish I hadn't. It seems I just messed everything up. Every big thing in my life I made wrong choices about. It just hit me recently since I've become more involved with the bills and our money that after 11 years of marriage we have absolutely nothing but what my husband brings home each week. Nothing in the bank. Nothing. And I'm finding it scary. Life is so scary for me anymore. I still pray. But I don't understand it.

[eggplantlife]

Thank you birdpumkin. You made me see that god won't answer all prayers and some he does. People are saying the same things to me about how he doesn't want for you and he works in his time. So it is about faith. It is something to believe in and have hope.

I'm at the point I'm really scared about what's going to happen to me mentally. I don't have family to back me anymore so I'm really scared. I started to feel like this recently. I'm thinking this week but might be longer. So I am coming to god. Many reasons but this one is main right now. I need to find that person inside of me that can make money and stand on my own feet. I really need that person. I need the strong person and have to finish this battle inside of me so I can move forward in my life.

I'm really sorry about your cats. I saw this online article about a cat who came ack after more than 10 years. I hope they come back.

I go to this church that I don't completely believe in everything but it's nearby and maybe god wanted me to go there. Because the kind I would like to go to isn't near me. I'm learning about this faith stuff. I need to have faith that I will be taken care of.

[sabby]

Hey Folks,

Just a friendly reminder to all posting here that we have a specific guideline for this forum and it's listed at the top of each page of this forum and states:

No religious talk whatsoever is allowed here in this specific forum, including but not limited to church, clergy, the Bible, etc. Thank you.

Please keep this in mind in your future posting in this forum.

Much appreciated!

[eggplantlife]

Oh, thank Sabby.

[redbandit]

I constantly ask myself the same thing. It's so hard being depressed! I think God gives us trials to make us stronger. But I don't think God really "does" this to us, rather he allows it to happen. I'm praying for you!

[Slamjammer]

Ok, you're down in the dumps, feeling depressed. It happens to everybody at one time or another. Maybe you are asking the wrong question. If you think God has caused this, you should be asking him what he expects you to learn from it.

On the other hand, the cause of your depression may very well be of your own doing. At some point you need to address the cause directly. There are times when I'm feeling down in the dumps, or (more likely) P.O.'d about something. I go for a brisk walk for 30 minutes or so to blow off some steam. It clears the mind and allows me to focus more clearly on the problem.

No guarantees, but try it.

[glok]

Hello, eggplantlife. We are people. People are incapable of understanding the ways of the upper levels.

Illness happens, depression happens, crap happens. That's just the nature of life.

God is there beside me helping me through every trial in my life. His purpose is to help and guide and support me along the way. The trick is not losing my focus that He is actually there; it is easy to be distracted from His presence.

[(JD)]

Originally Posted by eggplantlife

I don't see the sticky. I'll try again.

10 Common Cognitive Distortions and what to do about them

[glok]

Hello, eggplantlife.

15 Common Cognitive Distortions | Psych Central
Fixing Cognitive Distortions | Psych Central

I wish you well.

[AbsurdBlackBear]

I don't believe in a being that just comes in interferes in our lives and makes a tune up like a mechanic. It'd be cool if such a thing existed, but what I believe is that God is a co-sufferer who suffers with us in our pain.