God's Plan

Okay so I was deeply upset when my daughter age 20 told me she loves me but can't have me in her life. She said don't text me, don't contact me, etc. Well I've sent her texts saying what I needed to say. But tonight I've had a revelation.

God asked me years ago to cut my daughter out of my life, she was raised by my ex husband and his wife. I had visitation. I said no she needs me, I won't do that to her.

Now God had her basically say she doesn't need me. This is God's plan! I was distraught begged her forgiveness basically. Which fell on deaf ears. Now I know this what God intended my purpose in life is not inclusive of my daughter.

I still don't know what that is but I have a new lease on life. I know God is straightening my crooked path. Cutting people out of my life and I'll miss her but if she comes back I'll welcome her with open arms but I'm moving on.

I raised her. I love her. But she's not meant for what I'm here to do. And I've put it off long enough. I know I have. My time is limited. My mom even said the other day you won't be here in 20 years. So times a wasting.

God's plan is in full force each day a new step comes forth. I can finally leave the state I'm in and go where my heart leads me. I always stayed to be near her. So glad I'm making use of that voucher. It's portable so when I'm ready I'll continue my path.

This has really been eye opening. I fought to have her in my life I guess that fight has ended. Now it's time to live my life for me.

I'm glad you are finding your destiny. Children sometimes change their views and attitudes towards parents as they get older. Maybe God has some happy surprises in store for you down the road. Wish I knew what else to say. Best wishes.

Heard from my daughter. She said she's not ready to forgive me and needs space basically. I still feel this is God's plan to change my life. So many things are happening right now. So many I can't even think straight really.

Moving, men, money possibly, job change, just too much. New job affects disability and I'm worried about it. Working holidays now.

Aviza, are you okay? How are you doing now a days?

I read your older posts, and feel inspired and motivated by them because I'm a father to a young daughter, much younger than yours, but I worry, and can relate a little to your fears or feelings because I think to myself two possibilities a) my daughter winds up having bipolar disorder or b) she likewise tires of my highs and lows and 'disowns' me one day or tries to absolve herself from any responsibility or contact with me - as I have with my own father. I do not mean to imply yours has done this to you per say, I am just sharing my fears and looking for feedback as well. Thank you.

Be well.