[teresapooh98]

Well starting a couple of days ago I felt feeling depression coming on and the depression keeps building up. The paranoia is not good, its like i have to be on my guard every minute. I have been sleeping with a hallway light on or my closet light on because I am scared of things happening to me. I thought my paranoia was gettiing better until last night then like at 8 or 9 last night the door bell rang and no one was there. The doorbell is inside our screened in porch so we would hear that door close so it made me very freaked out. I was able to go for a 35 minute walk with my mom, 1.5 miles. Sometimes I feel like my t/pdoc doesn't understand what I am going thru. I know she does but its hard when she tells me to do things that I am too scared to do and paranoia gets the best of me. I have a hard time doing things that involve a lot of people. I'm not good with crowds. I know she is trying to get me back into the world and get me out of my head. Sometimes I think of death but most of the time not.

[hopefultohelp]

Hi teresapooh98!

I feel for you. I have a daughter who was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder several years ago. She has been through her share of paranoia and I have been there to help her through it. I am curious if you are on any meds at this point in time or if you just try to overcome it on your own? please let me know and we will talk some more. ok?

hopefultohelp

[teresapooh98]

Originally Posted by hopefultohelp

Hi teresapooh98!

I feel for you. I have a daughter who was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder several years ago. She has been through her share of paranoia and I have been there to help her through it. I am curious if you are on any meds at this point in time or if you just try to overcome it on your own? please let me know and we will talk some more. ok?

hopefultohelp

That would be great if we could chat some more. I really have no one to talk to except my mom and my pdoc who is also my therapist. I am on meds and the meds that i am on are Pristiq, Depakote ER, Seroquel XR, and regular Seroquel, and Klonopin. I still sleeping with a light on but my paranoia is getting a tiny bit better. I'm not sure if I dreamt it or really thought it last night that my paranoia was that bad that I thought about sleeping downstairs with my mom(my dad is in florida for a wedding). My mom and I didn't go to the wedding because I didn't feel that I could handle it.