[russells]

So I'm off the meds again because I truly feel I am not ill, though diagnosed schizoaffective.

I'm tired of living on this planet and I'm trying hard to complete my mission that I'm here for but I'm getting frustrated with society.

I just want to return to where I came from and live among my own people somewhere in the Orion constellation.

I've started talking in different accents impulsively lately and it's quite amusing for others like my girlfriend for example, but I'm also gettign quite violent and twisted thoughts as well.

Thoughts?

My mess are poison so I stopped taking them. I can see them watching me they're all working together the moon creatures are trying to take the cats hair dye has microbots that will get into your brain and read your thoughts so don't dye your hair and nail polish can track you so stay safe.

[DePressMe]

When I have thoughts like yours I find that its a good thing to see my pdoc. Maybe he/she can help you decide about your meds. Be careful with the violent thoughts--get help before they get out of control............D.

[BarbaraM]

i've stoped taking my meds too just ativan every somany days i might take on or two. but i don't trust that this new one won't make me fatter than the last on did. not to mention it felt like takeing poison for no reason. my aunt is dying of serosis of the liver from too many pills. it's not pretty. that aint gonna be me. plus i think ive tried all there is for me and they don't have any new med to try any more so what now? i'm doing good , just a bit lonely, haveing hard time accepting this reality. i don't like the recent changes. other than that i think as long as they keeep there distance and no one messes with me i'm good to go for a while

[sweetmadness]

I've had thoughts about space travel, and where we might all come from. I've had this crazy idea that we were from the sea and interbred with aliens. I think civilization is older than we think, because there are pyramids in the ocean that have been discovered. It's all cool stuff to think about. But I can't claim to know what isn't common knowledge, I have no factual proof. I've learned to rationalize things. It helps keep me centered. If I were off medication the mania might prevent me from caring enough to rationalize my thoughts because I'd be so off in my own world and I'd prob be enjoying it too. I wish I didn't have to rationalize everything and that it all came naturally. I get too caught up in my own fantasies sometimes, I try not to have any fixed beliefs but that means my opinions are always changing. Wish I was just normal?