[Aviza]

I'm going through so many changes, and I quit meds because I was uncertain if that was messing up my hormones causing the bleeding issues. I was willing to do almost anything to make it stop.

Now I wait to find out if I have cancer, and reading so many things that scare me to death. I'd rather just let cancer eat me alive than have my clit, vagina, or anything related to my enjoyment of sex removed.

Now I'm really volitile emotionally speaking. Going through thoughts of wishing I would just die. My mom used to say, your chornic, get well or die already. I really wish I would. Life is so so hard, pain , heartache, disappointment.

Everything I touch has failed. I longed and wished so hard for love, I finally met and married a man I truly love and it's definitely not the cure all I had hoped for. Family hates him, cut me out again. I'm so tired of everything being such a fight in life, it's crushing.

[healingme4me]

Has your doctor performed an ultrasound? Does your pdoc know you stopped meds? Sometimes with a cancer scare an anti anxiety can help.
That sounds atrocious of your mom to talk to you like that!

((((Gentle Hugs))))