[franz kafka]

Which is most prominent for you, delusions or hallucinations?

I experience chronic hallucinations, but most of the time they are mild and not intrusive. At most they are very distracting and it's difficult to concentrate or read (that only happens when I'm manic too).

On the other hand, my delusions tend to be life threatening and have more than once caused hospitalization. They are clearly more prominent for me.

[neodoering]

I couldn't tell you which one is more prominent. Often the voices bring on the delusions, or pump them up. I experience both voices and delusions on a daily basis, usually for hours a day. They seem to go in cycles of being very bad for six or eight months, then not so bad for four or five months. Then bad again, etc. I've been SZA for 11 years, and I can't imagine what life would be like with no noise or terrors in my head. I can barely remember what it was like before February 7th, 2006, when the first voice started taking over my mind. I've tried a number of AP drugs, but they've all had little effect. Now I'm on olanzapine, and we'll see how that goes.

I don't work (I'm on SSDI), but I have a few hobbies that I undertake when the symptoms aren't too bad. You have to have hobbies and friends who take your mind off the illness, or you will go completely isolation/batshit.

I'm glad your symptoms are mild, and I wish you a full recovery and return to a healthy and vigorous life.

[LacunaCoiler]

I experience more delusions then hallucinations but they only happen when I'm manic. It starts off with people spying on me and reporting back to the shadow people and when it's really bad I start to actually see the shadow people. Though to be honest, I've only seen them a time or two because my meds do a good job at keeping them at bay. I do however, go through periods where my delusions are a little worse at times.

[Biteplate]

I have more hallucinations than delusions. I hear voices and see things that are not there. My meds have reduced these and got rid of the tactile hallucinations.

[SkitsDoubt]

One man's isolation = batsh*t
is another's solitude = stability.

My delusions (though NEVER life-threatening to anyone) were unbearable at first psychotic breakdown. Those I "suffer" with now are ever-present, and give me HOPE. Though I have insight that the rest of the world believe they're delusions, I do not.

My hallucinations are daily, as well, but tolerable (mostly audio). The most insufferable are those of constant, mainly-berating chatter--critique of everything I do, say or think. Separate from that are my more distinctive "voices"--those that I audibly hear...maybe a dozen or more a day that I call my TEAM. Those still have a "magical" feel to me--often leaving me amused and confused. The most recent gem: "When you sing to a dog, you sing to us all." (I have no dog, nor do I sing.)

Can someone explain inner voices and how they differ from thoughts? I don't think I hear voices....I hear things that are said but I think they say something different than what they actually say (just like I miss hear them and I think everyone does this?) but my head is always so chatty with a barrage of tormenting thoughts I feel are inserted into my head from outside sources to torment me. I guess this is delusion? I'm really going round and round right now with all the realization of everything I may have misinterpreted in my life. I don't know what I've perceived correctly and what is illness. I'm so confused right now. I don't know if they world is actually populated with mostly cruel people or if I see danger where it doesn't exsist. I'm so afraid I will never be able to leave my house again without someone I trust being right next to me. I'm taking meds and it's getting easier to deal with waking up but I fear I will never actually recover. Anyone with this illness get on a med that made it all go away?

I can't say I relate exactly to what you describe but my comprehension is not at it's peak and my ability to describe my own experiences is poor. I can't even find the words to describe it , even if I could I'm not sure I could. I'm sorry for what you experienced, I went through something so very traumatic recently and I think it forever changed me but I'm hoping I can find a way to manage somehow. I hope you all do as well. (((Hugs)))

I got two threads mixed up and I'm sorry as I don't think my reply makes much sense. I get more delusions. Hallucinations are rare I think and drug related for me. I had some vision issues lately that were probably hallucinations and I worry they are flash backs from drugs I took a long time ago. My husband says I would have had them regardless and it's not my fault but I guess we will never know for sure.

[neodoering]

Originally Posted by Biteplate

I have more hallucinations than delusions. I hear voices and see things that are not there. My meds have reduced these and got rid of the tactile hallucinations.

Biteplate;

What kind of tactile hallucinations did you experience? I sometimes think that bugs are crawling on my skin, when I can see that there is nothing there.

[Bbop]

I can't tell y'all how good it is to hear you feel just as I do! Meaning I'm not as alone as I thought. I have Ben plagued with auditory hallucinations. Hearing both things that aren't there making noise and things that I think people are saying. My visual hallucinations are ither seeng people and cameras that are not there or seeing things move such as the stars that are stationary. 2 years ago severe parinoia set in, where I thought everyone was out to get me, the Feds, my neighbors, and unfortunately my family. I thought this parinoia and these thoughts were real. Do y'all know if the parinoia is brought on by these hallucinations or Vic's versa?