So here's the deal. When I'm off of my medications I deal with mood swings, that are alright, I have manic states and depression, I have hallucinations, delusions and things like that. I can manage those just fine. When i'm on my medications I don't deal with any of those but... Every 6-9 months my medications fail me and stop working in which case I deal with a massive mood crash where I get suicidal and I need to check into a psychiatric unit then I have to deal with a month where my medications aren't working and I deal with a month of feeling abosulutely suicidal and wanting to kill myself. While off of medications I feel suicidal once in a great blue moon. I'm thinking about getting off of medications because of the crashes every 6-9 months because I'm seeing it as a major flow in my body with medications. My body adjusts to medications why too quickly and I've been on too any medications. I am thinking about trying a natural remedy route because that might be better for me. I see my psychiatrist on Wednesday and I will be discussing this with her. I just am sick and tired of the major crashes where i feel suicidal for a month and I only am in a psych ward for a week for me adjustments to be put on a new medication.

[Victoria'smom]

Can you do intensive outpatient as you detox from the meds and start natural remedies? What remedies do you plan on trying? How are your coping skills? Do you have a therapist that you see 1-2x a week?