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#421
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I feel better today. My therapist didn't respond today so I decided to switch therapists. I found a good one. It took a few tries. She's already responded. I feel like it's a good fit. So I'll see how it goes. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’ |
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#423
I hope it's ok to say this, that I am so grateful to God for bringing me to you. I am so messed up sometimes, I feel like I'm in an odd world, very strange. But there's this other part of me that seems to know I'm ok & says to hang in there. That something or someone brought me here, & you help me get through a lot. Thank you, dear friends!
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#424
I'm a little stressed. I have some difficult chores to handle today. And for some reason, I have a migraine again this morning. My male cat keeps crying. I'm not sure why. I've fed him wet food and dry food. I haven't been able to give him attention yet. I've been taking care of my own needs. One thing he likes is sleeping in the dryer. I think I will warm it up for him. I keep my clean clothes in there. He sleeps on them. I'll try that.
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#425
I had a scare last night, but I'm healing from it. I think it's just my mind playing tricks on me. I feel pretty safe and happy at home right now. I took my meds late last night and my sleep patterns have been weird. I did another layer on my watercolor painting. I plan to go to call my boyfriend and meditate still and eat lunch. Maybe I'll read some in my recovery book.
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#426
I'm doing okay. I'm kind of depressed today. Probably didn't help that I took a Xanax this morning. It calmed down the rumination, but it is a depressant. I feel like I'm drowning in depression. But other than that I'm okay. Haven't had any hallucinations in a while. A couple of days I think.
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#427
I feel a little stressed this morning. I have to clean the litter box again today, and I don't have much energy. I have no motivation. I don't plan to do any other chores today. I'm not in the mood to cook. I plan to order myself some food today. I want to relax as much as I can.
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#428
I am hearing voices now. I think it is from the weather change. I am delusional at times too. However, I am still taking my medication. I am ok but the voices are making me a bit insane. I am working still and actually focusing on work helps me to forget about eh voices in my head. Weird! I don't hear voices when I am concentrating on tasks. So, I am working- teaching. I am also applying for an internship as a medical translator. I am translating some excerpts for this position. I hope to volunteer as an intern for a year. I can build my resume and apply for other translation jobs as well. I am doing ok! I am all alone here but am keeping busy. Happy Holidays!
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#429
I used some coping skills to calm down and I feel better. I took a nap. No hallucinations while listening to music or from my air purifier (these things cause me to hear things). I have a safety plan in place and I'm going to bed.
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#430
I wanted to order a Thanksgiving dinner from Cracker Barrel today. But it doesn't look like that option is available. I guess I will try to cook myself something today. I'm in a good mood. I hope I can find the energy to cook. Happy holidays to everyone!!
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#431
My voices claim they aren't annoying me & that it's the other way around. Maybe I'm hallucinating.
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#432
I had a pretty good day. I saw some friends on zoom. Then I saw family on zoom. I'm still feeling a little paranoid, but I don't want to go to the crisis center, because it seems to be going away rather than getting worse. I'm going to bed soon. Happy holidays!
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#433
I'm pretty worked up at the moment. I had a stressful morning with ordering groceries. My groceries were delivered to another apartment. But I was able to get another order free of charge. It doesn't make sense to me. But I was so afraid that something else would go wrong. I've been anxious for a couple of hours now, and even though it's over with, I still can't calm down. Maybe I can try a nap and some meditation. Or cuddling with my cats. I could try a funny movie like Home Alone. I've been wanting to watch it again.
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#434
I'm excited about my 25 succulents arriving from amazon (yes bought live plants from the internet). Plus I bought a bigger succulent. I have a greenhouse like apartment, so they'll love it. I talked to my mom earlier today. I was sock skating on the floor when I fell, but I'm not hurt. No symptoms today. I tested about fifty percent for bipolar symptoms yesterday. My moods do feel whacky lately, due to grief, but no different than usual. I feel like I am super cycling and I almost posted in the bipolar thread, but I'm schizoaffective.
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#435
I went to work today. That was nice. It was good to see everyone again. That was my entire day.
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#436
I feel overwhelmed today. I've been working on chores and taking care of the cats. I haven't been able to take care of myself yet. I just have too much going on.
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#437
I slept last night, I slept all day today, then I stayed up until midnight.
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#438
I'm doing okay. I had an appointment with my T on Saturday. We talked about my hallucinations. She's concerned about some of them because they upset me and she doesn't like me to be upset. She is really quite lovely. I got my Christmas shopping done. Just maybe some charity donations now.
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#439
I'm feeling lonely, sad and bored. I was having so much fun with my new game. But now there's a bug and I don't know how to proceed any further. Playing the game took my mind off my problems. It made me feel like I was accomplishing something. Maybe I will open a ticket or search the forums. I guess it's really time for me to go to sleep.
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#440
Hi. Shall try to keep it plain. I haven't been on here in a few years. I think I may have abandoned some of you. I'm not sure who remembers what anymore.
I'm having an episode. I can't call my hospital's crisis line b/c it's completely useless. I am nonviolent. So, kind of what I'm seeing: "Faces" everywhere, people (mom and bro) spying on me in their sleep and at work, respectively. They're loud and noisy. We're American citizens so they're bad spies. I don't pretend to be a good one because I don't spy on anyone. I wonder if I am autistic episodically? Everything is overwhelming and there's too much detail in everything. This morning was good, now it's ****. What of what I'm not seeing? I don't know. I don't know how to get help, ever. No intent of harming anyone, fwiw. Euch. <-- this one's illegal in my life. family laws. |
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