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Heart Sep 30, 2021 at 02:09 PM
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I'm sorry I haven't been posting here recently. I wanted to. I keep messing up. I so much look forward to finding a good T & good medicine. I had a very hard time previous to now but feeling a little better at the moment.

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Default Sep 30, 2021 at 05:20 PM
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I'm not doing well tonight. I talked with my mom just to have a good, positive conversation. She had to dump her problems on me. And they are disturbing. I'm very upset. I can barely cope with my problems, how am I supposed to deal with hers. I cant. I will quit talking to her. I've set boundaries before. She doesn't respect them. She crossed the line today. It's over. I want nothing more to do with her. No more texting. No more calling. I don't want or need her help. She is poison.

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I think I am starting to unravel....

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Default Oct 04, 2021 at 05:14 PM
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I had a good day. I stayed busy with chores, cooking, a drive and games.

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Default Oct 05, 2021 at 02:17 PM
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I could not be better! Busier than a bumblebee, I feel grateful for my life and what I have. Still compliant, I am stable! Please don't give up! Life is sometimes a roller coaster ride. I encourage those to keep going forward despite setbacks and obstacles. I know depression, psychosis, mania are not easy to deal with. But, we must not think these episodes define us or our lives. Please persist!! Remember no matter how hard it becomes, we should think of better days ahead. Please don't dwell on the negative. I love you all!! It breaks my heart when I read that some of you are suffering. I've been there so don't give up- sleep it off and take it easy. Please take it one day at a time. Hugs to you all!!
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Default Oct 05, 2021 at 04:02 PM
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Today wasn't too bad. I had a stressful moment this morning. But it worked out. I played my game and took breaks to do chores. I accomplished a lot. I even got ready for my appointment tomorrow. That way, I just put on clean clothes and go. I will try to relax tonight. I want to do a mindfulness meditation. It's my favorite one.

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Default Oct 06, 2021 at 10:06 AM
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It's injection day. I hope it kicks in fast because the last one wore out and I'm relying on PRN Thorazine to get through the day. I'm supposed to stop taking the paliperidone pills today and switch to just the injection. I'm scared I'm going to have a bad reaction to the higher dose and I'm going to need to go back to the hospital again.

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I'm nervous about my appointment today. I leave in a couple of hours. I had to go through my morning routine and finish getting dressed. It stressed me out. I just want this over with. It's a dental appointment. So I'm not too happy about that. Hopefully, it goes well.

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Default Oct 06, 2021 at 10:26 AM
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I accomplished an importatnt goal yesterday.

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I got scarily paranoid last night. I thought my neighbors were
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Instead I just walked by to prove myself right and when I was back my cat was fine so I recognized it as paranoia and took some thorazine which helped a ton. It's been a few days since my injection; it should be working by now I would think, but I think I'm hallucinating too, but I can't really tell but I saw the biggest worms ever this morning.

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Default Oct 08, 2021 at 01:43 PM
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I've recently had my diagnosis switched to this. I'm having a hard time believing it, but I also know that many of the things I experience aren't quite normal. I went back on my antipsychotic a week ago but I don't know how much it's helping right now. I feel good but there's a lot of weird stuff going on and none of my usual triggers are sending my mood down at all. It's like my brain is keeping me from feeling low which most people would say is a good thing but I really don't want to cycle up into mania again. I feel like I have good insight but my brain gets better at tricking me and the fiction/reality line seems a bit blurry because of how it feels like things are lining up in a way that has me on edge. Random sounds to me will be interpreted as they said my name. I'd see people on the side of the highway running only they were made of their surroundings like an event horizon of a black hole curving light. It's not easy to describe but seemed kind of off.

I mean I feel normal right now? I still think I'm hearing my name and seeing words/messages appear on my hand but at what degree is this kind of stuff acceptable?

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I can't find a therapist. I guess everyone with Covid issues is in therapy. I called around town and no one's accepting new patients. It feels strange having no therapist. I've been journaling. And I'm making sure to be more active on here. It's going to be a challenge. Maybe in a few more months, I could get another therapist. Other than that, I am doing okay. I'm keeping myself busy with games and chores.

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Kind of rough these days.

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Today's been pretty good. I've been watching Twitch.tv and playing my game. I won some armor and weapon skins, so I'm happy about that.

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I'm tired this morning. I need sleep but I keep waking up. I wake up and feel on top of the world and then a few minutes later, I'm ready to go back to bed. I think I will try a meditation and completely relax.

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It's late and I'm starting to feel sad. I feel lonely. My sister lied to me today. She has stage 4 cancer and I was only trying to show support. She was rude. It hurts. I tried to get over it. She's currently in the hospital. I was just worried about her. I will be careful not to bother her. I suppose my mom will keep me posted.

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