Schizoaffective Check In Thread #1

Deilla · Aug 02, 2021 at 04:59 PM

I tried to quit vaping this weekend. It was terrible. I slept mostly cause I couldn't cope. Nothing I did helped. I resupplied today. Now I'm feeling less stress. But I'm disappointed in myself.

Brego · Aug 04, 2021 at 02:49 PM

I think that I am hitting a stable point. Seriously feels like it. I am enjoying this feeling a lot.

Feeling the motivation itself to quit smoking is really good. It feels like it is working up to be that I actually do.

I tried meditation. I am just a beginner, so meditation is a little unknown and I don't think I quit got there. However, the images and voices were a little bit like they were calmed down from being so abusive. They were rather sweet actually. And the effect lasted quite a long time. I tried this because a friend wanted to tell me to meditate. It seems helpful to me, so I should keep doing this and become one grand old meditator to solve my problems. I can see myself getting better and better when I really want to try. It was very relieving to hear it all be not so demeaning and angry.

Deilla · Aug 04, 2021 at 04:44 PM

I have my third back procedure tomorrow. They will give me a mild sedative. They want me awake for the procedure but I don't want to feel the pain. These procedures hurt. This one will be worse.

SlumberKitty · Aug 09, 2021 at 03:58 PM

How did the back procedure go, Deilla? Did you notice any relief?

SlumberKitty · Aug 09, 2021 at 03:58 PM

I'm doing okay. Just anxious/bored today.

Deilla · Aug 09, 2021 at 06:54 PM

Thursday will be a week since my procedure. I'm not any better. The nurse said to give it a week. I hope I see improvement.

Breaking Dawn · Aug 09, 2021 at 07:44 PM

I was able to watch 2 tv programs that I've been missing for a while, so that was uplifting.

Deilla · Aug 11, 2021 at 01:16 PM

I called the nurse today. She said it's normal to still be sore. It could last a few more days. I think I did too much yesterday. I really hurt today. I am taking it easy.

Brego · Aug 13, 2021 at 03:34 PM

I think I'm finding an activity that I love!

Deilla · Aug 13, 2021 at 04:23 PM

I feel sad tonight. I've had a lot of disappointing things happen. They're just little things, but it adds up. Maybe it's time for me to go to bed. I get more depressed later in the day.

stahrgeyzer · Aug 13, 2021 at 05:26 PM

I’m feeling good this week so I’ve been taping myself off my antidepressants, unbeknownst to my psychiatrist and therapist. Just so tired of them. They make me sleepy.

Breaking Dawn · Aug 13, 2021 at 10:06 PM

I'm ok right now.

MuddyBoots · Aug 22, 2021 at 08:41 AM

I think I'm going to start posting here more regularly. It's "official" in my mind my schizoaffective diagnosis now. I was kinda hoping the psychosis I had was from drug use but I've been clean for a while now and the doc at the hospital went over all my psychotic symptoms while I wasn't manic or depressed and it's setting in that they're right.
I start PHP tomorrow. I hope I can talk to the same doc because there's issues with me getting some of my meds.

Breaking Dawn · Aug 22, 2021 at 12:27 PM

Hi, friends. I'm not me right now. Very sad. Crying a lot. But grateful. Trying very hard. God bless you. I wish you happiness & wellness. I'm so glad we have each other. Today feels very different. I don't understand & I don't know what to do. It feels very painful. I've been watching tv for comfort. I've been recalling precious memories. So sad but wonderful. So I feel fortunate to have had those experiences, & I am grateful, but sad.

Deilla · Aug 22, 2021 at 12:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Breaking Dawn

Hi, friends. I'm not me right now. Very sad. Crying a lot. But grateful. Trying very hard. God bless you. I wish you happiness & wellness. I'm so glad we have each other. Today feels very different. I don't understand & I don't know what to do. It feels very painful. I've been watching tv for comfort. I've been recalling precious memories. So sad but wonderful. So I feel fortunate to have had those experiences, & I am grateful, but sad.

I'm sorry today is tough. I hope the tv programs help. Yes, remember the good times and know that they'll be more. I'm sending good thoughts your way.

Deilla · Aug 22, 2021 at 12:59 PM

I'm having a difficult day too. Things aren't that bad for me, I just don't feel well emotionally.

MuddyBoots · Aug 23, 2021 at 02:55 AM

Woke up way too early again. Early bird gets the worm, early human gets bored. I'm not very interested in starting PHP today. My thoughts feel very jumbled.

Deilla · Aug 23, 2021 at 03:42 PM

I've been in a bad mood today. But I just got a shower, which is a huge accomplishment. So I'm feeling better. I think I will go on a drive tomorrow as a reward.

MuddyBoots · Aug 24, 2021 at 06:19 AM

The paranoia+voices are strong today compared to yesterday. I took a zyprexa prn at about 1:30 this morning. I didn't sleep well.

Deilla · Aug 24, 2021 at 01:11 PM

I went on my drive today. And I slept well last night. So today is much improved.

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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 02, 2021 at 04:59 PM #721 I tried to quit vaping this weekend. It was terrible. I slept mostly cause I couldn't cope. Nothing I did helped. I resupplied today. Now I'm feeling less stress. But I'm disappointed in myself. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 04, 2021 at 04:44 PM #723 I have my third back procedure tomorrow. They will give me a mild sedative. They want me awake for the procedure but I don't want to feel the pain. These procedures hurt. This one will be worse. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 09, 2021 at 03:58 PM #724 How did the back procedure go, Deilla? Did you notice any relief? __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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SlumberKitty Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Jul 2018 Location: CA Posts: 27,329 (SuperPoster!) 5 117.7k hugs given	Aug 09, 2021 at 03:58 PM #725 I'm doing okay. Just anxious/bored today. __________________ Dum Spiro Spero IC XC NIKA
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 09, 2021 at 06:54 PM #726 Thursday will be a week since my procedure. I'm not any better. The nurse said to give it a week. I hope I see improvement. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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Breaking Dawn Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: USA Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!) 4 42.2k hugs given	Aug 09, 2021 at 07:44 PM #727 I was able to watch 2 tv programs that I've been missing for a while, so that was uplifting. __________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * *
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 11, 2021 at 01:16 PM #728 I called the nurse today. She said it's normal to still be sore. It could last a few more days. I think I did too much yesterday. I really hurt today. I am taking it easy. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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Brego Veteran Member Member Since Sep 2020 Location: Wichita, KS Posts: 597 3 55 hugs given	Aug 13, 2021 at 03:34 PM #729 I think I'm finding an activity that I love!
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 13, 2021 at 04:23 PM #730 I feel sad tonight. I've had a lot of disappointing things happen. They're just little things, but it adds up. Maybe it's time for me to go to bed. I get more depressed later in the day. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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stahrgeyzer Magnate Member Since Feb 2018 Location: literally hell Posts: 2,331 6 5,648 hugs given	Aug 13, 2021 at 05:26 PM #731 I’m feeling good this week so I’ve been taping myself off my antidepressants, unbeknownst to my psychiatrist and therapist. Just so tired of them. They make me sleepy.
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Breaking Dawn Legendary Member Since Sep 2019 Location: USA Posts: 16,689 (SuperPoster!) 4 42.2k hugs given	Aug 13, 2021 at 10:06 PM #732 I'm ok right now. __________________ "Every moment is a fresh beginning." (T. S. Eliot) "Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines."(Robert H. Schiuller) * * * * * *
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 22, 2021 at 12:59 PM #736 I'm having a difficult day too. Things aren't that bad for me, I just don't feel well emotionally. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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MuddyBoots Monster on the Hill Member Since Sep 2020 Location: by the river Posts: 4,094 (SuperPoster!) 3 4,819 hugs given	Aug 23, 2021 at 02:55 AM #737 Woke up way too early again. Early bird gets the worm, early human gets bored. I'm not very interested in starting PHP today. My thoughts feel very jumbled. __________________ If any chord that I could strum Make me feel less like a man I'd slam my fingers in the doorway And shatter all the bones So I could never strum again
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 23, 2021 at 03:42 PM #738 I've been in a bad mood today. But I just got a shower, which is a huge accomplishment. So I'm feeling better. I think I will go on a drive tomorrow as a reward. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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MuddyBoots Monster on the Hill Member Since Sep 2020 Location: by the river Posts: 4,094 (SuperPoster!) 3 4,819 hugs given	Aug 24, 2021 at 06:19 AM #739 The paranoia+voices are strong today compared to yesterday. I took a zyprexa prn at about 1:30 this morning. I didn't sleep well. __________________ If any chord that I could strum Make me feel less like a man I'd slam my fingers in the doorway And shatter all the bones So I could never strum again
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Deilla Legendary Wise Elder Member Since Oct 2017 Location: Limsa Lominsa Posts: 29,401 (SuperPoster!) 6 49.2k hugs given	Aug 24, 2021 at 01:11 PM #740 I went on my drive today. And I slept well last night. So today is much improved. __________________ ‘Live for now,’ ‘This too shall pass,’ ‘Everything is happening for my good.’
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