[WastingAsparagus]

Post away! About your struggles or successes with this illness. Or anything you think is salient to post.

[Breaking Dawn]

Thank you. I have voices.

[WastingAsparagus]

I'm doing okay today. My olanzapine was recently increased. So that's good. Hopefully I'll stop having some of the troubling symptoms I've been having because of that.

[Breaking Dawn]

I've had some nightmares lately, & one really bad. I woke up screaming, so that was how I got away from the terrifying situation. Any of you having nightmares?

[Victoria'smom]

I don't have dreams.

[SlumberKitty]

I had bad agitation yesterday. I don't get that often but it was very disabling as I was going through it. I was having paranoia and anxiety as well. I took Lybalvi and the agitation, anxiety, and paranoia went away but I forgot how the side effects of that medicine are. I felt really dizzy, had trouble walking, felt like Zombie chill and had trouble thinking. I was super sedated.

[stahrgeyzer]

My T said I have schizoaffective disorder (among many other disorders). I don't believe her even though I have unusual thoughts such as nobody is real.

[Brego]

I denied the invitation to take Clozapine, was this a bad decision? There are practically miraculous results and its said to treat suicidal ideation in Schizophrenics. I honestly did not want to do a blood test every week. I am not terribly suicidal all the time and the feeling passed off. When I told my doctors I was going through these suicidal feelings, the feelings themselves were really minor. I may have exaggerated the entire thing. One of these docs said that the Clozapine could help with cognitive symptoms of Schizoaffective disorder. But I did not want to take it still. I was so happy and it was running through my mind that my movements and moves themselves were so unlike me. They must have been fluid, like water or something. I was just willy nilly doing whatever all it was during a few days. So, I think I was right in having turned down that Clozapine.

[SlumberKitty]

I've had a really tough week: paranoia, lack of impulse control, agitation, hallucinations, stress intolerance, distressing images, difficulty communicating, difficulty managing emotions, anxiety, depression, and suicidal ideation. I feel a little better today so I am a little hopeful that maybe the worst is behind me (for now!)

[MuddyBoots]

@Brego I was on clozapine for about a year and it was very effective. Side effects were sedation, drooling and weight gain. I stopped it because I had to go to a special pharmacy for it every week and they would have trouble getting my labs so I always had to go through withdrawals every time I got a refill (which were awful as most AP withdrawals are). If you have any questions about it feel free to PM me.

@SlumberKitty I'm sorry you've been struggling so much. Hopefully you're right and things keep getting better

[Breaking Dawn]

Voices are the usual difficulty. I wish so much that I could have my mind & my private thinking room back again.

[SlumberKitty]

Doing better this week.

[Silver49]

So nice to find an online community of schizoaffectives. We are a rare group but also a diverse group of people.

[SlumberKitty]

Originally Posted by Silver49

So nice to find an online community of schizoaffectives. We are a rare group but also a diverse group of people.

I agree.....

[Brego]

I quit cigarettes in like December or something. I found a pack of cigarettes in the pocket of my non-smoking mother's jacket she gave to me. I went in there to tell her I was going to smoke it, and she totally said "Nope!!" so that I wouldn't smoke again.She took the cigarettes from me......

[Breaking Dawn]

I did better most of today & yesterday. I actually managed to fulfill a few goals I had been putting off. So that lifted my outlook a little.

[SlumberKitty]

I'm okay. I'm just really anxious. I have a Pdoc appointment here in a little bit.

[SlumberKitty]

I want to try to get off of one A/P. I'm on three. I've been relatively stable except for like a week when I was having a lot of symptoms. So maybe Pdoc will let me try to not take one of them.

[Breaking Dawn]

I'm ok at the moment. I followed through on a few goals today. I still have something harder I need to do & hoping I will do it.

[Breaking Dawn]

I actually managed to do the harder goal this morning that I was worried about yesterday. I have harder goals I need to get to, but I should give myself a pat on the back for any amount of progress that comes from effort, so I'm doing that this morning. It's weird though, I feel sad at the same time.