Could I have schizoid?

Hi everyone,

I'm just wondering if this could be schizoid personality disorder, or if I'm just an anti-social person.

When I was younger, I had friends...and in grades 9&10 I had my fair share of friends too. In grade 11 I had several breakdowns due to severe OCD and went to the hospital 5 times. Now I'm in grade 12, and since I've had my first breakdown I've basically only kept 2 close friends (the others are mere acquaintances), and I'm easily annoyed by them & my family and prefer to be alone most times. Whenever my friends call me I refuse to talk most of the time, and whenever they ask me to socialize I turn them down. It's not that I'm afraid to socialize, I just don't want to. :/ It makes me somewhat sad because I know there was a time when I used to like socializing, I just can't remember how that feels.

I don't like to do a lot of things...very few things make me happy. I'm sort of a flat and detached person. I like to joke around and stuff when I feel comfortable with my friends...so I still have my sense of humour, but a lot of the time I'm just like "Blah."

Also, I'm not sure if this is important but things annoy me easily, such as chewing, even if it's proper...and sometimes the sounds of peoples voices will bother me so much that I have to leave and go be by myself.

Does anyone have any insight? Thanks!

While i don't think anyone here can diagnose ...... it's best to see a therapist and get guidance for that....

with that said though, it sounds more like you have depression. I would think that to have a personality disorder one would most likely show symptoms for at least 5 years or more..... that would show it's chronic-- a part of ones personality....(IMO)

I'm sorry you are having a rough time.

fins

I'm not a doc and therefore not qualified to diagnose, but I do know that to be diagnosed with any PD you need to be out of adolescence. You're too young for the dx as of yet and you don't want to match behavior to a false one. Give yourself a few years.

Thanks for the replies guys.
I did further research and found that I'm not schizoid after all, since I don't meet all the requirements and my issues aren't at the high degree of severity required.

HOWEVER, I took purple_fin's advice and took a look at depression, and came upon Dysthymia (aka minor depression) and it describes me so perfectly, I was freaking out. The symptoms that matched included social withdrawal, irritable hostility, conflicts with family & friends, a parent with major depression. Plus, I've always felt that I've never been truly "happy", which is very common in Dysthymia.

It's both a relief and a sadness to have found what I'm actually suffering from, along with my OCD. :/ I really don't know where to go from here, but perhaps I should consult with the depression board? Thanks again!

best of luck to you ohseedee.

please know that there is help for all....... just finding what works best is the venture.