If you can ask the question then your not

A couple of years ago I was going to a psychiatrist and he was prescribing an antidepresents and seroquel. He didn't really want to do any counceling, kept on suggesting to go to a therapist I did for a little bit, but it got to be pretty inane. The overall approach seemed to be fix yourself by your relationships and co-dependency. It seemed to ignore the idea of trying to fit a square peg in a round hole. Me being the square peg. Any way along with the troublesome side affects and things just not getting better or not being on the drugs it didn't get any worse so I stopped it.

Maybe I'm a seasonal psycho (and honestly my stress is a little more right now). Lately when I wake up in the morning the thought comes to mind, am I going to loose it today.

I've just entered my 40's but without any exaggeration I feel like I'm an 80 year old man on the inside. I'm just tired of life on the inside. I see myself as a cynic, not cynical but I know people see it otherwise.

Sometime I think that I'm just excentric and I'm too aware to be mentally ill. I make sound arguments and cogent discussions. You've may have seen those horror movies where the person wakes up from a bad dream, but they are still in the bad dream and they don't know it until it's too late.

Hey if you can relate let me know.

Oh I sooo get you! I get the feeling that they believe we are fine because we are able to hold it together for 40mins and able to go into minute detail and use the correct lingo. I think it's undermining and humiliating and leaves us with the feeling of "whats the point"? They need to open their eyes and see the turmoil inside us because it's certainly not for the lack of endless sessions explaining it!

stop being a peg. i'm 37 this week and stopped taking any and all meds over three years ago, f..k them, they dont want to listen to you when your medicated because "they have done what is required" by medicating you, their job ends there. go back unmedicated, raving and informed from your previous dealings and dont take "cant do anything for you" for an answer. see where that gets you.

You are the best advocate for your health.