Self Realized Schizoid

Ok....so for as long as I could remember I've preferred to be alone and if I can't be alone I'd rather be with just one or two people I know really well. This has never struck me as odd, I'm just less social than other people. Well, this Thanksgiving weekend I was overwhelmed with 26 freinds and family at my house and all up in my grill for 3 days. Not all 26 the entire time, but it felt like it. Anyways, the longer I was forced to be around all of these people I have known for a really long time, the more and more anxious and angry I got. Finally, when they all left and it was just me, my wife and kids again, I ended up having to go to another family function. While there the frustration level picked right back up and continued to grow until we left. Finally when I was back home and in my bubble I felt relief. Then I though to myself...other than a few mild annoyances with a couple of individuals...why was I so anxious and frustrated. No one was being mean towards me or trying to cause trouble. As a matter of fact, everyone I was around this weekend is a very decent person and not the type people try to avoid. So I had a moment of clarity. Why then am I in such a hurry to get away from them. They're trying to get together, share some food and a good time. No one is doing anything to cause me to want to get away from them. I must have something wrong with me. So I did what any modern person does...ran straight to google. I was shocked that within a couple of minutes I have 5 of the sypmtoms used to diagnose Schizoid Personality Disorder. Can I overcome this myself by knowing I'm the problem and need to make choices to be more connected to my friends and family socially?

Hi,
Are you still here? You posted this in November, and nobody's replied, thats quite bad, I'd feel hurt if that was me.
I used to be here a lot, now I've moved on, but came back for a visit in the quiet days after Christmas.

I think you did some good thinking and researching from what you shared here.
Let me know if you're still around, how did you get on since self-diagnosing?

river

Hello...

My partner has a Schizoid personality disorder and funny enough it is a disorder that I have little knowledge about... I do hope so that you come across individuals here that will be able to identify with your experiences and help you on your journey...

Why should you be required to hang out with lots of people? I guess I do not understand why that is a big deal. What is your functioning level at? I know sometimes people whom prefer to spend time by themselves and/or only with their close loved ones might feel anxious in crowds of people. I do not think that you should be required to engage with a bunch of superficially individuals whom desire to interact with you. It really only appears that more people desire to have a relationship with you than you desire to have a relationship with them. Additionally, you might have agoraphobia if you start feeling anxious when you are in crowds of people even if they are nice. You might want to check it out online to see if you have that also.

Here is a nice song that you can listen to when you run away from those crowds of people whom want to engage with you.