[jrh5r87]

Hi, I am new here, and I don't think I have schizophrenia, or at least haven't been diagnosed. I have an overwhelming fear that I may one day get it. I am 23 now, and my great uncle has schizophrenia, so a lot of worry stems from that. Anyways, since I has about 13 I have had a few episodes where everything felt very surreal. I felt as though I was in a dream. I guess you could call it derealization, and it usually happened when I am stressed out and the feeling lasted for several months. These episodes have happened a total of 4 times maybe, but over the past year it has gotten worse. It happened a few times and subsided quickly. I think it may have just been panic attacks. There were times where I would sit and class and just feel like I was going to start talking for no reason and I couldnt stop it. It never actually happened though. I dont have any hallucinations or delusions. I am just worried that I am going crazy or am going to wake up crazy one day.

Long story short. I am wondering what the onset/prodromal symptoms were for you.

[volatile]

Around 7-9 I heard voices and I used to watch the cieling turn to water and melt down the walls. That subsided then around 14 I was very suspicious of people, I couldn't be around people. I could hear them talking about me, whispering and everytime someone laughed they were laughing at me. Everyone was watching my everymove, they were stealing from me, etc. I was originally diagnosed with an anxiety disorder.
You probably just have episodes of derealization (or w/e it's called), I don't think you're going crazy I also don't think it will get worse. Stop stressing, and if it really is bothering you that much see a doctor. It might be something actually going on in your brain like mini seizures.