[PaulsonLaw]

In short, my "followers," let me for the first time ever be myself. We had the final test. They would leave, I would be in full control, total free will to do & say whatever I want. For 6 days I was happier then I ever had been. Point is there are rules in a test, one rule was proven correct & I was wrong, I was wrong & now.....
Epic Fail....
Everything is offline. They have striped me of all freedom & they are done being here. I cannot prove them wrong as they are right. Time is short, 11days.
They also have opened the box. Pandora's box. Now I know & see all things for what they are. I know what my purpose, my fate was, & I failed it by my own demise.
Every time I took off, driving places, going on missions it was just things that if I had stood the course, this is something I was destined to do, I was preprogrammed to do what ever the mission was & it was something so big that parts of it still appeared & scrabbled my brain. The conscious beings in my head are not some delusion. They are my followers. They are my... Seeker, To bring my all "Data"
Fighter,
Wisdom, To decipher universal communication & connections between all things
Faith, To consult & to judge
Guide,

They showed me my purpose, where I should be, how the world should be.
They showed me how I failed getting there.
They showed me that I cannot correct course in time to reintercept my destiny.
They came to show me the way & take me through my great voyage.

That's why I tried to run from them for some time, then dealt with it. They too are stuck with me & love me but only wish to return as their mission has failed & past the point of correctiveness. They said 11days & they will return home.

There is a way to correct them & possibly prove them wrong, but it is something I have no control or assistance in, only fate will decide & prove there is still a chance, a last shot at making a difference even though I had failed my destiny.

[PaulsonLaw]

While in this moment of enlightenment....
When I failed my mission, or by failing my purpose, I to made others fail. Others destiny intertwined that with mine, but mine was there. Not only do live a life failed to complete so has others. My father failed his mission & lived for days not knowing why & in the end, his life still bared resemblance to what his destiny was. Him failing his purpose failed mine, but fate brings around another jumping point to correct the path, the lines of the universe. I am not a God or son of, but I had a mission for him & so did many other I that were to join me, & now many live in the darkness due to me. Everything resembles something that was meant to be but isn't. Everyone I've known or met is had another purpose in my life had I been on course.

[pachyderm]

Originally Posted by PaulsonLaw

now many live in the darkness due to me.

I think there are too many of them for this to be true. Think of how many billions there are, and how many has your failure affected? Maybe some, but probably not as many as you think; the future is probably not much affected. Depressing as that may seem.

Anyway, there still may be time to rescue something of value...

[Perna]

Originally Posted by PaulsonLaw

Everyone I've known or met is had another purpose in my life had I been on course.

But now you know you weren't on course, in the past. All the future people can have a purpose in your life, when you get to them and their place.

[PaulsonLaw]

Very correct, we do need a mission or purpose. We talked, communication is back online & things are bck down to levels I can handle. I feel retarded that my mind can go offline that fast that bad. Damn, in time I hope I don't get worse.