I am so paranoid some times that I blame everyone for everything. I wish I could stop doing that because it only hurts me later.People start to despise me.
I take meds, but it does not make all the paranoia go away.

My mom has paranoid schizophrenia, but she has not been diagnosed. She refuses to go to a doctor. She blames everyone too.

I wish there was a button on my forehead that would shut it all off. I'm sure others on this forum may be experiencing the same thing. I would like to hear your stories.

[RunningEagleRuns]

Well i used to wake up in the night terrified. Id get paranoia every night, when it was dark. My heart would race when i woke up in bed. Then id think someone was going to hurt me, so id get hostile. =?

[Perna]

I'm so sorry you experience this, it sounds hard to deal with. I use to get paranoid in work situations I didn't like or feel "safe" in, think people were talking about me or didn't like me. It was always better in places after I had been there awhile and knew the people better and liked them and knew they liked me. I get worse when I spend too much time alone because I just have "me" and no different/correcting input coming in. My logic is good and I can usually follow it so I don't get too far afield until I know my surroundings and the people in it better but it helps if I don't spend too much time alone for too long, gets too easy to get out of touch if I'm just in my head for too long.

[phantomfox777]

Yeah, I sometimes feel like people are hiding in large stores like walmart of something to hurt me. I think they can hide better in a large amount of people. Sometimes I think my parents absolutely hate me. ANd I'm not meaning the normal teenager angst thing. I think they want to kill me. I wake up at night and think that someone is watching me out my window. I think my mom can read my mind. I get so scared sometimes that i will lash out at anyone!!! I hate it when it's all over because i know I've hurt people's feelings. I hate not having control over what i feel.

[The Saint]

Complicated stuff,I know my self pretty well having to deal with schizo for yrs and yes a good part of it is in my head for the rest of it people are just out and out assholes,attacking who ever looking for a rise (creeps). I have situational stuff as we all do but I get the brunt being told 'no it's just your paranoia or schizo.This makes me very angry because I know better,sorry but most of our probs are brought on by the cruel majority of society not our disease ! Chin-up ! your worth it !