[blue orchid]

Hi everyone,

I am in this situation and would like to know what you think about it. I have suffered with this for several years, but it has been clear enough for me to describe it until some months ago. The thing is that I have the sensation that there is another me inside my head/mind that tells me bad things to do to myself. It always tells me to hurt myself and things that make me feel sad and whose intention are to get me depressed. The other me also tells me to see certain movies (like Donnie Darko or The Cell) that put my mind in a bad mood and makes me to stay in bed all day and do nothing but sleep to try to dont think or hear that voice.

How can this other me be unreal if I can hear/feel it so clearly? besides it has a will of its own. I can't control it, I have to hear it even if I don't want to. My pdoc says it's a product of my own mind, but if that is true then why I don't have any control over it?? He calls it a hallucination and says that every time I give it a place in my world, I disconnect from reality, because that "other me" doesn't exist.

I am so tired of hearing my other me all the time. I wish I could make it shut up, but even if it shuts up a bit, I can sense it is watching my every movement to judge me later and tell me how wrong I behave in everyday life. This really is not life, this is torture!

Thanks for reading this!

Blue

[costello]

Wish I had an easy answer for you. I agree with your pdoc that what you're experiencing as another you is a product of your own mind. I don't agree that it doesn't exist. Clearly it exists. It's making you suffer. But it's still part of you. Do you see a talk therapist? Maybe he or she could explore what's going on with you and help you find ways of coping.

I think Costello has good advice. I think in 12 step stuff, group therapy, they say, "action precedes understanding." Listen to your doc and therapist. Don't take advice to heart, unless it is from a trustworthy source. Taking advice from strange, for profit, movies, I don't believe will help you, or anyone. I've been consumed by inner voice noise, I had to suffer for a while, then it got better with docs and therapists, amongst other blessings from, maybe above. Good luck, don't panic. ask for help. find support.