[Forestmind]

Hello everyone.

A few weeks ago I started to wonder if I have schizophrenia or other mental disorder.
First of all, my mother's cousin had a serious mental illness (don't know what exactly) and she was being locked up in mental hospitals all the time.
In my early childhood I had some anger attacks towards my little cousin. This looks very strange to me now, because I am very peaceful person and couldn't attack nor feel serious hate to anyone. Also, I had some panic attacks in school when for no reason I started to think that everyone is making plans to get me or do some bad things to me. This is also very strange, because now I am a very friendly and trusting person. I also had a very hard adolescence when I hated everyone and myself too, I had terrible time at school and so on. Talking about attacks, I also had a manic one, when for no reason I started to talk and laugh non-stop, which is also very strange and my mother even suspected I had taken some drugs.
These things had gone now, but a few are left, like depression and sound hallucinations that I experience now and then. I had used hallucinogenic drugs a few times, but I don't think they are the reason.
To add more, my hand are always shaking and it's sometimes hard to concentrate my eyes one one thing. I am very absent-minded and have a strong imagination.

Please exuse me for writing so much, but I just thought it might be interesting to hear your opinions.

Thanks.

[volatile]

IDK, I'm not a doctor. But it doesn't sound like Schizophrenia.
I think you're fine to be honest, since you said most of that is in the past.
You are allowed to have quirks to your personality. We are not suppose to be 'normal' clones of each other.