[newtus]

all of a sudden im backing out
cant talk to my therapist
im scared to be truthful
i have a whole bunch of stuff to tell them
now i cant
ive humiliated myself in front of myself
and probably them

newtus

i know you are having a difficult time talking to your therapist , however, if you do , you may find that he or she can help you through these things, that is what they are there for, and if you can't tell them per se, maybe writing a letter and giving it to him or her would be of some assistance to you.

i do hope you feel better soon and keep reaching out to us here.

[bipolarmedstudent]

Originally Posted by newtus

all of a sudden im backing out
cant talk to my therapist
im scared to be truthful
i have a whole bunch of stuff to tell them
now i cant
ive humiliated myself in front of myself
and probably them

Newtus, what happened? I'm worried about you. You seemed to be doing so much better just a few days ago.

Why are you afraid to talk to your therapist? Remember she can't help you if you don't talk to her.

Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you feel better.

[newtus]

i just described something on the psychotherapy forums.

the "talk to yourself" thread. i said i did but it wasnt voices but then i said it was intruding peoples voices from my past and present saying mean things to me and i try to tell them off. but it doesnt go away. the more i try and stop them the worse it gets inside and outside of me. if i dont do anything it stays a low level of bad. still bad.

[bipolarmedstudent]

Originally Posted by newtus

i just described something on the psychotherapy forums.

the "talk to yourself" thread. i said i did but it wasnt voices but then i said it was intruding peoples voices from my past and present saying mean things to me and i try to tell them off. but it doesnt go away. the more i try and stop them the worse it gets inside and outside of me. if i dont do anything it stays a low level of bad. still bad.

But why can't you talk to your therapist about it? I thought she was helping you?

Do the medications help with these thoughts/voices from your past? What about ignoring the voices, does that help?

I have OCD, so sometimes I get intrusive thoughts and images too (embarrassing stuff, like images of incest). I tell myself it's just my OCD, and I ignore it. I try my best not to let it upset me. Just let it come and go. Don't let it distract me. You can't control the voices or what they say, but you can control how you react to them. Maybe if you decide not to react to them, they will not bother you as much. Just a thought.

Also, did your dystonia/parkinsonism from the haldol go away?

[newtus]

Originally Posted by bipolarmedstudent

But why can't you talk to your therapist about it? I thought she was helping you?

Do the medications help with these thoughts/voices from your past? What about ignoring the voices, does that help?

I have OCD, so sometimes I get intrusive thoughts and images too (embarrassing stuff, like images of incest). I tell myself it's just my OCD, and I ignore it. I try my best not to let it upset me. Just let it come and go. Don't let it distract me. You can't control the voices or what they say, but you can control how you react to them. Maybe if you decide not to react to them, they will not bother you as much. Just a thought.

Also, did your dystonia/parkinsonism from the haldol go away?

i dont know if its OCD stuff though or voices. i quit taking those meds, so yea its gone away.