I need help but I'm scared to ask for it

Although I haven't been diagnosed with schizophrenia by a professional I'm almost certain I have it. I hear and see others don't. I sometimes think my purpose in the world is to bring the apocalypse. I have many theories of reality that others just say are crazy or delusional. In addition, I have pretty much most of the other classic signs. I seriously need help, but I don't want to ask for it. People will just call me crazy or laugh. Even my mom and sister don't care and just either laugh at me or beat me when I irritate them. I really don't know what to do.

Maybe go see your doctor, see if they think you should see a psychiatrist, I've never been laughed at by anyone I have seen, so don't worry about that.

I know that talking to my psychologist has really helped me. I don't have schizophrenia though. They just think I'm sick, I'm being gang stalked.

I would say definitely talk to someone with experience in working with mental health issues. It's good that you are at least able to acknowledge that your thoughts are not normal. I promise you, you will not find an experienced therapist or doctor who will laugh at you for these thoughts.

Definitely try to find a professional to talk to. In the meantime, keep posting here for support when you need it

**hugs**

Like others have said here, professionals will not laugh at you. Wish you the best.