[newtus]

im suspicious....

im starting to wonder if i ever was schizoaffective.

ever since i took meds regularly at 17 ive been getting worse

and ever since i have been this month ive been getting worse.

im starting to think this is what big pharma is all about..

thing is maybe THESE MEDS MADE ME SCHIZOAFFECTIVE.

IT MADE ME SCHIZOPHRENIC.

THINK ABOUT IT

CAN YOU GUYS WRAP YOUR HEAD AROUND IT?
HUH?
THE TRUTH?

[KUREHA]

It could be, I told my nurse ages ago that they were giving me meds to make me crazy, but she said she was busy enough.

I still don't know why I take it though, my nurse said if nothing was changing they would know I wasn't ill, nothing is, so why am I still taking it.
I might just stop.

[fishsandwich]

The drugs they made me take certainly made me more unwell than anything I ever had whilst unmedicated. I don't think they made me psychotic, though -- that kind of drug tends to be illegal.

Do you remember the time before you had to take drugs?

[newtus]

yea the time before i took this stuff was a lot like now but it was extremely less severe. i heard my name being called i was a BIT paranoid and always was socially isolated BUT THAT WAS ME and all this other stuff but it WASNT SEVERE LIKE THIS.

IVE JUMPED FROM A 3 TO 10 ON A SCALE OF 1 TO 10

[volatile]

well for me I know taking Zyprexa gave me a mood disorder, at least a worse disorder. Before I was just kind of unstable but I never had any of this emptiness business I experience now. And I know it was the meds because that is why I stopped them to begin with, it gave me the same sensation just a little more intense. It never went away. I don't feel emotions properly anymore.
I'm sure meds can cause ALL KIND of problems that are just being blamed on the illnesses themselves.

[fishsandwich]

Originally Posted by volatile

I'm sure meds can cause ALL KIND of problems that are just being blamed on the illnesses themselves.

I think one of the most frightening things about the meds is that the public stereotype of a person with schizophrenia is (other than deranged murderer) a person who is completely spaced out, who slurs their speech, and is quite possibly drooling . . . except that's not from the condition. It's from the drugs.

[newtus]

Originally Posted by fishsandwich

I think one of the most frightening things about the meds is that the public stereotype of a person with schizophrenia is (other than deranged murderer) a person who is completely spaced out, who slurs their speech, and is quite possibly drooling . . . except that's not from the condition. It's from the drugs.

haha thats me
and my mom says "ARE YOU DRUNK?"
i say NO IM ON MY MEDS

[fishsandwich]

I was like that on the drugs too.

[likewater]

My mom is schizophrenic and a murderer but my pdoc says she is really rare

Once you screw with your natural body chemistry with unnatural medications, it's going to be altered... But please try not to despair over it. Who knows if it wouldn't have gotten this far over time? All you can do is learn to move on & find a new, safer way to handle your thoughts/behaviour. : )