[Engima]

As a last resort, I come here to express myself.

I really don't know how to deal with this. I don't even know whether I am posting in the right spot.

I am told that my PTSD triggers my psychosis and was diagnosis with psychosis last year. During that time, I had already got the PTSD and Bipolar diagnosis in the past. I currently don't have insurance but even if I did, my spouse does not believe in medical treatment.

I wake up at nights seeing things that are not even there. These symptoms get worse during stress.

I don't think my spouse understands. I am just supposed to "get over it". I have been doing well though without medicine. Due to having someone else living with me, I am told when something is there and when something is not. I am just afraid that there will be a time when I will need to take meds.

[brackenbeard]

hello enigma. i'll be the first to say meds aren't the end of you. the majority of us take meds, and deal with side-effects, and get on with our lives. don't worry if it comes to that... we get on with our lives... with or without meds.

you may be having a tough time, and I'll be the first to say psychosis is a *****. scary, painful, and disorienting. i dread when the warning signs start coming cuz i'm in for it again.

there's nothing to get over. you don't pull yourself out of psychosis, haha... it's like a different part of us we don't have access too that starts acting up... for lack of a better understanding. if you want my advice try to educate your spouse about what you're going through. in fact family education classes put on by mental health community programs are perfect for gaining a mutual understanding of what illnesses are like for people in close relationships.

[OutofTune]

Enigma, my psychosis is caused by PTSD too. My voices constantly remind me of all bad shite I've been through. I find talking about my past makes it worse. The doctors say it's crucial to recovery. Painful but necessary.

About your spouse... you ought to educate him. Let him know PTSD and psychosis aren't something you just "get over". Trauma never really goes away and psychosis definitely won't without medication. Do not let your spouse keep you from seeking treatment.

[Engima]

Thank you for the advice. I really appreciate it. I am just stuck trying to explain that although he can do everything for him, there are just somethings he cannot solve. He feels he should be my cure. I know a good man wants to be everything for his woman and it hurts when I try to tell him that he cannot cure all of me.
I will keep trying though. Thank you again.

[faerie_moon_x]

I want to tell you that if you live in the US, and you decide to see a doctor that is your business by law. He can't know what goes on, or even if you are a patient anywhere. You have no insurance so you may be able to get in to clinics that have sliding scales to be seen. If nothing else you can maybe find a therapist.

Everyone else is right: you don't just "get over" psychosis. And it's not shameful to have psychosis, just the meida turns it that way. The stigma is ridiculous. You don't tell people with diabetes to "just get over it," also if you had diabetes your husband couldn't "cure" that, either. It's nothing to do with him. Tell him that having his support will be better than having to live in shame over being who you are and needing help. This site has good education tools for your husband. You can print them out.