So I didnt tell you all that I am schizophrenic along with other rubbish they keep saying. Im not saying I am, jut telling you that is what they say, I mean it doesnt mean I am, just remembering what the doctor said, so it might not be true and also it might be. But if I look on the letters that what it says.

But I want to know if I feel so low, used, depressed, suicdal, angry, scared, always anxious, lost, hopeless, useless, rubbish, crap, how can I be all these things! is it because I am schizophrenic or is it all the stuff going on, I guess what I am saying is I cant be getting psycotic stuff about this depression because I know all these things are happening to me.

So how can someone who lost their job, marriage is ruined, kid is self harming and trying to kill herself, has a police criminal case going on for 3 years, doesnt know when it will end, has no money or acess to anything that belongs to me, how can I NOT be depressed.

If someone asks me some of the symptoms of depression I can relate to them. It doesnt matter what negative thing you can think of , I am that thing! How can this be possible, why me. Its nothing to do with schizophrenic. Or is it. No one will explain to me. My head hurts.

I will give you an example, because I know no one can understand what rubbish I type. I know a man who killed himself, so I dont know him now because he is dead, but knew him, but anyway, he lost his job and killed himself. So just over that?? Nothing else. And then some people would say to me 'dont worry' or 'it cant be that bad'. YES IT IS!

[Atypical_Disaster]

It's very possible to be both schizophrenic and depressed. Regardless of exactly why you're feeling depressed, I believe you when you say you are feeling bad.

[faerie_moon_x]

Depression is a powerful thing. And I say anyone who commits suicide over a job loss has a lot more going on that they were hiding from everyone. It's not the job loss, that is just the final straw.

And yes, it is possible to be both depressed and schizophrenic. It's possible to be depressed with any other illness, mental illness or physical illness. Depression is a major problem for people with diabetes, actually.

I just dont want to be depressed and so sad! Its not fair. Everyday is impossible. I hate it. It's never ending. Why does this happen to people. Why me. I mean I dont want it to happen to someone else, just want it to stop. I dont see anyway. Some people lie and say there is light at the end of the tunnel. Its a lie. Im useless at making other people feel happy. All I do is spread unhappiness. Im like a plague. Someone said Im 'tainted goods' like rust. I spread a disease to everyone who i know. I ruin lives. Stay away from me and dont reply to my posts, I dont want to infect anyone.

[newtus]

i see no light at the end. but everyday does feel like a tunnel. tunneled in.

people dont lie. they just dont know what to say. so they say a bunch of crap phrases.

im not depressed a lot.
i would prob say i have a layer of sadness of me thats been there always. so much so im used to it now. it doesnt bother me anymore. what bothers me if i get extremely depressed.