[birdcrazy]

I did not think that paranoia was part of my illness, but then I realized I was paranoid of my husband.

I have either accused him of or at least thought he was these things: pedophile, sociopath, murderer, cheating on me, will start to abuse me.

I love my husband so much I don't know how I could think these things. My antip doesn't help these thoughts.

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[faerie_moon_x]

I struggle a lot with paranoia and it's usually the close in type of paranoia like you are drescribing. My husband tends to take the brunt of it as well in a lot of cases. Like you say cheating, talking to other women, plotting to abandon me, plotting against me with other people to make fool of me. All of it is completely illogical and irrational at the end. And it is terrible because I love my husband tons and tons, but I also think that is why my paranoia settles on him so much, because I do love him and don't want to lose him.

I have learned about reality checking and I practice it a lot. It doesn't always work out because, you know, fighting your mind is hell. But, I ask myself questions when things start to build. I remind myself I've had these thoughts before and they end up false. I also have learned that admiting that paranoid thoughts are surfacing to my husband helps. Because he can instantly reassure me. There have been times, though, when he has had to prove to me and not just in his words. He once let me look through all the girls in his skype list to prove he hadn't been contactign them. Truly he had never called or messaged a single one in year. That's pretty solid.

So, I try not to get to that point any more because, you know, it makes him feel bad, too.

Hang in there! Reality checking is a lot of hard work!

[birdcrazy]

He shows concern over me, gives me lots of hugs, says positive things about me, etc.

He looks so hurt when I accuse him of stuff. I got jealous when he was talking to a female relative on facebook.

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