[Nessa213]

They are all lying to me. Everyone is hiding something I just don't know what it is. They try to get me to leave the room so they can do something I don't know about. There's some motive and I wrack my brain trying to work it out. They tiptoe around me. They completely ignore me. They avoid eye contact. Then I hear them laughing.

I've trusted the wrong people and I now regret it. I don't typically believe in regret. But I regret trust to tears. I get that emptiness in my stomach that tells me they will use it against me. I'm going to be stabbed in the back soon with the secrets I too freely shared.

Why did I do that? That was so foolish. To trust again. I hate them all for letting me believe in trust again. I hate it. I hate it. I hate them. I hate all of them.

[faerie_moon_x]

I feel you, Nessa. I've felt very similarly tons of times. You're not alone.

[Gr3tta]

I am so sorry nessa. Would it be safe to confront them? Ask them what they are hiding? If unsafe, can you stay away from them? Are the liars real to everyone people, or people that are real only to you?
Don't be harsh with yourself. I am sure you are doing your best.

[Nessa213]

They're real to everyone kind of people. And they're all against me. It feels like they're all being fake. Just in general. And they're hiding something.

I try to tell myself that no one could possibly care about me that much, but I'm having a harder and harder time believing myself.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Nessa213

I try to tell myself that no one could possibly care about me that much, but I'm having a harder and harder time believing myself.

So, you mean care about you in a nice way? Or a mean way? As in: why would they take so much time to be against me.

Some people live on drama. I hate drama and tension, but some people love it.

[Dylanzmama]

I know how you feel. It's like they all had a meeting about me to decide how to "handle" me.
And I might not just be paranoid