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can you tell me more about yourself?
how are u?

I dunno im so quiet now sorry..

but I'm alright

A whole thread for me? Coolness.

Female, Canada, apparent depression/bipolar/psychosis/idk because the system sucks and I'm waiting to see a counselor and a therapist. Self harm and disordered eating and apparent ocd as well.

I live in the middle of nowhere and currently unemployed part time student.

I'm annoyed at real life currently and slightly delusional...

Tell me about yourself!

oh lol nvm

[newtus]

to put it in the format you did.
me

female. tx. diagnosed schizoaffective/schizophrenia (depends on what pdoc you ask ive seen tons). been dxd since 17 with mostly schizoaffective. schizophrenia @ 21. flip flops between the two. hospitalized between 13-15 times by now. lost count by now.

not doing anything with my life right now. im 23 today (bday).

so ur right system sucks. i completely understand.
im supposed to have a case manager they didnt give me sh_t STILL. even after hospital pdoc and social worker sent over records to request one this past time.

[mimi2112]

Originally Posted by newtus

to put it in the format you did.
me

female. tx. diagnosed schizoaffective/schizophrenia (depends on what pdoc you ask ive seen tons). been dxd since 17 with mostly schizoaffective. schizophrenia @ 21. flip flops between the two. hospitalized between 13-15 times by now. lost count by now.

not doing anything with my life right now. im 23 today (bday).

so ur right system sucks. i completely understand.
im supposed to have a case manager they didnt give me sh_t STILL. even after hospital pdoc and social worker sent over records to request one this past time.

I am so angry with those MOFO's for not getting you assigned to a case manager!

Always in the back of my mind I just want to slice up my arms pull out my hair and scream and end up in the hospital it's how I feel deep inside. I should probably have been hospitalized several times...

You seem very nice.

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thanks

me too.

i was hearing voices in the hospital bad. idk how anyone actually doesnt hear voices in the hospital!!!sso many people talking n going on. my roomate was like "man those people next door they keep talking LOUD" and the nurse was like "oh honey are you hearing voices" and im like "nah i heard them too!" and im like oh sh_t HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i just got myself in a mess!

Originally Posted by newtus

thanks

me too.

i was hearing voices in the hospital bad. idk how anyone actually doesnt hear voices in the hospital!!!sso many people talking n going on. my roomate was like "man those people next door they keep talking LOUD" and the nurse was like "oh honey are you hearing voices" and im like "nah i heard them too!" and im like oh sh_t HAHAHAHAHAHAHA i just got myself in a mess!

Hahaha man gotta be careful what you say everyone is on edge and ****. I say one thing and it's like OMG WHAT ARE YOU OKAY and sometimes they just won't give a ****.

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exactly they either give a crap or they dont. its very off/on with them. its either they do or they dont. they filled me with meds at this last place. f_k that. screw that.

Like I know I should take my meds because they're supposed to make me better, but they're poison and they're ruining me and hiding the truth! I need to know the truth and be myself. I can't think on the meds.

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you know what i cant take? THOSE MEDS.

I wish we could just be happy to live as we are instead of pumped full of drugs that they don't really know what they do to us.

I might be a little drunk right now though so idk.

I hope you had a good birthday.

[newtus]

lol you "might".
lol thats funny

thank you!

I won't drink beverages unless they're with a straw so I tend to down everything so I chug everything and with the meds they amplify it so I get 'feeling good' pretty quick lol.

Don't make fun of me!