So I'm new here. I was on PC before but got paranoid and deleted my account. I'm bipolar but have been in psychosis before. 3 years ago I ended up in the hospital and that was when I was diagnosed with bipolar. It was horrible I didn't eat or sleep for 5 days and was in a psychosis. I was afraid to go to the hospital bc I was worried they would drug and rape me.

I finally ended up going and was put on meds. It's been a struggle but I think I'm finally stabilizing and on the right meds. The only thing that sucks is I'm on latuda and sometimes I get akathisia. I have congentin and visteral to help it if I get it.

I just need others to talk with bc I isolate all the time. I don't want to post on the bp forum bc it doesn't seem as supportive as u guys.

So hope to get to know everyone.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Hi and welcome...I see you're at five posts now so you should be able to interact without delay from the mods. Some of us didn't see your posts on rollcall until later but did respond. Anyway welcome and feel free to chat about whatever...

[newtus]

welcome to the schizophrenia boards

[faerie_moon_x]

Hi, welcome!

I also have bipolar, but I never got my full diagnosis due to bad insurance and not very much money. I'm bipolar NOS but I have ultradian cycling and mixed states / dysphoric mania. I seem to have some psychosis from passed experiences, but now my problems with it are pretty low grade. I get paranoia and random hallucinations at this point. I'm not in treatment or on meds, and have had very little treatment in general (due to the bad insurance and not very much money problem.)

I also came here from the bp forum for the same reason. It used to be better but something changed over there and I left because I didn't feel I fit in any longer.

[punkybrewster6k]

Hi Sunshine!
You shoul be able to post now and have it show up right away for us to see.
Im glad youre here!

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Hey everyone. Thanks for the welcome.

Fairy- that must be hard going through all that without help.

This is the first winter that I haven't been in a horrible deep dark depression. I'm really happy with the latuda except for the akathisia. I just isolate way too much. I've tried soooo many meds. I put on 50 lbs on seroquel. I also felt way too numbed down. The psych nurse I was seeing was horrible and wouldn't take me off it. I had a couple really bad psych nurses. I finally found a really good one.

Just got done with therapy working on some really tough stuff. Lots of abuse I went through. I also have ptsd but the symptoms aren't really as bad as they used to be.

I so need to clean, anybody else have trouble getting the motivation to clean? Well thanks everyone for the warm welcome.

[newtus]

i have trouble getting motivation to shower and clean house.

i had a bad psych nurse recently. i let her go and saw a completely new doc.

[newtus]

i think i have a problem.
that i dont understand myself like i thought i should.
my sis said i always dont feel well.
that made me feel selfish.
but idk why i always feel bad.
she said "well you go through a lot and your on a lot of meds".
and i said "i never looked at it that way".

i dont think i understand why i feel bad sometimes.
and like when i drink alcohol and how it affects me
and cigarettes.
and the haldol and xanax.
and so on.

you know what im sayingg?

Yeah me too. I only shower like once a week. I know gross.

I've had a couple of horrible psych nurses that just wanted to throw me on lots of meds and treated me like I was dumb. I seemed to know more about the meds and the side effects than they did, lol. Last time I ended up in the hospital the pdoc there was awful too. There are 2 hospitals here. One is decent and the other one is just scary. Lots of hardcore drug addicts and not nearly enough staff. The staff were a joke. I left in the middle of the night. I was in a really bad mixed state and being in there just made me worse. They are just overworked and probably underpaid. It's sad, we need more quality mental health care.

I finally got a decent one. But the first time I went in to see her some of my sisters went with me. It seems like if u have ppl with u the mental health ppl treat u better.

Sorry you've had such bad experiences.

Originally Posted by newtus

i think i have a problem.
that i dont understand myself like i thought i should.
my sis said i always dont feel well.
that made me feel selfish.
but idk why i always feel bad.
she said "well you go through a lot and your on a lot of meds".
and i said "i never looked at it that way".

i dont think i understand why i feel bad sometimes.
and like when i drink alcohol and how it affects me
and cigarettes.
and the haldol and xanax.
and so on.

you know what im sayingg?

Yeah ur dealing with a lot. Try and just be gentle with urself. I've read these forums for awhile and I think ur doing really good. Btw we have the same bday. August 27th. I saw that u posted that, lol.

I drink every once in awhile but I have to be careful with the meds I'm on. I smoke too. Can't do weed makes me wayyyy too paranoid.

Just be careful with the alcohol and xanax. It can be a deadly mixture. I take lorazepam for sleep but I never combine alcohol with it. Too dangerous.