[Matrigorok]

Uggh... I feel so dazed. Like everything is fading in and out. I can't think straight. I can't focus. I'm stuck. Like someone stuck out at sea on a small little boat with no paddles and it's too foggy to see. I take medicine for my Schizophrenia and my Anxiety Disorder, but it's just so mentally paralyzing.
I have to finish my part of a a report but I can't seem to write. I feel so out of phase that I don't have the real will to do anything productive. I just sit here like a lump. My mom knows that I have these problems but she lives too far away from me to help. My dad is of no help either he doesn't believe that I have a mental disorder let alone too. I can't afford to see a psychologist too. I spent all my available money on my psychiatrist and my medications. I feel nothing but a sad and empty swirl of confusion in my head. I can even do anything I enjoy anymore. I only take half of the medication because of the side effects. If I took the full dosages then I would be sleeping for 16 hours a day, nauseous, and nothing to show for it.

Can you bring this up with your psychiatrist? They might be able to adjust your dose or meds to counteract this problem. It's a tough one though because both mental illness and the medications used to treat them can cause cognitive problems

*Willow*