[StarStrike]

Today I asked my MH team what I was being treated for because I didn't fully understand why all of this stuff was happening. They told me I've been suffering from psychosis and I've been having these symptoms for eight months but I only realized something was wrong when my behaviour dramatically changed in the past six months.

I thought everyone heard voices. But I was wrong. Back when it was just voices, I accepted it as the norm. Even though they talk about me behind my back. They've said things such as. "Does she know her brother took a wee in the milk?" and. "The stupid thing's banged her head again! Someone should make her wear a helmet."

I've become afraid of using phones. The person at the other end is an imposter. And you can't say that it's the real person at the other end because you can't see the person you're talking to. So, I do everything in my power to avoid making phone calls. And when I have to, afterwards I start to panic and struggle to calm down. And the home phone keeps ringing but when anyone comes to pick it up there's no answer at the other end. I think it's the imposter. Someone out there doesn't like me and is doing this to upset me.

Also whenever I am outside, I feel like I'm being followed. Like someone is stalking me. I can just feel beady eyes watching me from a distance. But whenever I turn around to see who it is, no one is there. So I avoid going out and only leave the flat when I have no choice but to leave. Yet in that time I am out, I am terrified. So to keep myself from running around like a headless chicken I listen to music when I leave the house. I don't want to make a scene. The thought of strangers watching and judging me makes my stomach turn.

I have trouble trusting people too.

I just thought I'd introduce myself to this part of the forum and that I'd give you all some insight into getting to know me better. Thank you.

[Sometimes psychotic]

Hi---welcome!

Hi StarStrike!

Sorry that you're struggling

*Willow*

Hi StarStrike