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LemonFresh · May 13, 2014, 01:02 AM

Hi I am new to this site I have depression and schizophrenia with psychosis.My depression is mainly brought on by my other symptoms of schizophrenia the voices are always downgrading me and making me feel very bad about myself. I often get depressed and very closed off due to this.I was diagnosed with Depression and schizophrenia when I was 14. I have been suffering with it since the age of 12 though.I decided I need to get my life back on track so I joined this website recently as a means of a support group because I am far too shy in person to talk about my problems in a group of other people. I find it much easier to talk online.A little about myself; I have been in and out of psychiatric hospitals 4 times since I was first diagnosed with Schizophrenia,The first time being when I was 15 shortly after my psychotic episode in which I thought that I was being contacted by beings from another planet who gave me the mission that I apparently was half alien and half human and as a baby I was sent here to grow up with and live amongst the other humans to gather information and discover my true purpose which was to save the world.The hallucinations were so intense I actually saw these beings and conversed with them I actually thought I had been taken up into a space ship it was so real for me that it was too scary of a thought for me to accept my mind had made it all up for me. I did not accept I had a problem I fought my family over it and then after a heated argument I ran away for 4 weeks. I lived on my own hiding out behind this old empty house eating on the very little food I had packed in my backpack,until the police found me and brought me back to my family.They then committed me to a psychiatric hospital that I spent the next 3 months at. Then shortly after I was sent back a different time during another terrible and more violent episode of psychosis that earned me a stay in there for 6 months. The last two times were only for a month and then 4 weeks.4 weeks was the last amount of time I spent in a psychiatric hospital just last year.I still struggle with the psychosis and I still believe in many of the things that others say are delusions made up by my troubled mind. It's a constant struggle but I am trying to overcome these delusions with my medications and with the support of others.